While Im in no position to argue whats doing it for you, and generally symphatize with your reaction - I imagine it to be quite offputting - I cant help but wonder about the content.. Being provided for sounds extremelybunattractive and something only worth it in a postapocalyptic setting. Wouldnt a sexy confident and respectful (in thebright ways)man with humour beat being provided for? That sounds so alien an authoritharian to me - though I have a very welldeveloped sense of protection to any woman Im with.This. As a youngish female in her breeding age years (?) every post the OP makes reeks of self doubt/self criticism/uncertainty/blaming society-others for his lack of "social status".
Nothing, not a single thing, about this makes me feel safe, secure, confident, that I or any potential offspring would be provided for on any level...
It also sure as hell doesn't get me excited down below LOL
You have to work on your self confidence, game plan for your life, & actually become someone who can be seen as a potential provider beyond the concept of how much $ you earn.(although that never hurts)
I know plenty of men who aren't handsome in the traditional sense that are quickly viewed as attractive once interacted with because their body language screams it.
Get out of your head OP.
P.S~ Your social awkwardness is super apparent, might be worth looking into how this correlates with sky high serotonin.
Genuinely wanting an answer to whybyoubwould want that