Thinking About Ending My Life

[Blossom]

I think others might have alluded to this already but meaningful human interaction can go along way to us feeling a sense of purpose. There is always someone who has it worse and there is always a way we can make a difference. People think about suicide because they feel trapped and hopeless so if you can find small ways every day to overcome that feeling it will go a long way to helping you feel more hopeful. I try to jot down every night the things I'm grateful for so I don't lose sight of all the really great things in my life that I'm thankful for. Everyone has things to be thankful for but some days it is harder than others to pinpoint those things/situations/interactions etc. Just getting into the practice of being grateful in itself can start to turn thing around.

 

[BingDing]

Low T4 and high T3 is said to indicate the liver is converting T4 efficiently. High T4 might indicate some problem with liver function. There are different opinions on improving liver function on the forum but adequate protein is high on the list. I like betaine anhydrous, YMMV.

I would ignore everything DRTrenbolone has to say, my personal opinion. The only absolutes I have found in this journey are low estrogen/high thyroid, adequate protein, and getting replete in minerals and vitamins.

Vits A, D, E, K interact with one another, you have to account for that.

Maybe the best news is that you will outlive this period if you allow yourself to. Truly. It is impossible to get older without changing. There is a very high likelihood that the next period of your life will provide companionship, enjoyment, and the satisfaction of outlasting the bad times.

Love, BD

 

[PeatThemAll]

You can read Viktor Frankl books. It is about the jews on the nazi concentration camps. He explains why some of them let themselves slowly die, and why others had the willing of survive. Hint : it has nothing to do with calories or vitamin D.

Go find a Viktor Frankl therapist. WHy not ? What can be worse ? You can still read and write and seem smart at least on the rational level.

To each his/her own, but I found Frankl's work to be over-rated. Although there's one very important thing he mentioned that most people forget: when trying too much becomes un-natural, you're setting yourself up for (paradoxical) failure. As he mentioned, the more people worried about orgasms and trying to get them, the worse their recovery became.

So how do you make sense of this? Believe it or not, deep inside of you is a little voice, your own Natural Autopilot, that knows exactly what to do (and here's the kicker) *right now*. It works for food, supplements, activity, and goals/focus. It's a wise thing to heed it's advice: it's like looking at the RPM on your car's dashboard, it tells you how you're revving up the engine versus the gear you are in, but that's about it. It's no substitute for direction, fuel intake / quality, appropriate gear shift (see above not regarding Frankl, are your sights realistic), or history (maintenance).

So in short, that instinctual voice will help you, day by day, in laying down the foundation for recovery. Don't be surprised of yesterday-I-felt-like-it (ice cream/whatever) and-now-I-coudn't-care-less priority switches. That would be the equivalent of having reached the top of your loading dose, pharmacologically speaking. Said otherwise, that need is met, time to solidify another part of the foundation.

Yes, it takes time. Lessons need to be learnt. Thoughts and habits need to be realigned. But, heck, as like getting girls, it's only when you're doing it right that one day BOOM "Nature" sends you a messenger (opportunities, something new in the landscape/feelz) to tell you you're on the right track.

Just my :2cents

 

[tara]

post 102589 I would feel miserable with that diet. But that is because I can't handle so much sugar. I do much better with potatoes. I would substitute all the coke coke/orange juice/ice cream, for potatoes.

But yeah, you are not me. Maybe you have no problems with sugar.

I too would be miserable on that diet at this time. But that's me - I don't seem to be able to handle that much milk, unfortunately.
We are all diferent.
My system seems to like to get some well-cooked greens regularly, and onions. My stomach tells my a little liver regularly is good (but not too much at once).
And potatoes seem to have some advantages for me (maybe some downsides too, not sure).

Cold, I wonder if it would be worth trying some green broth (or well cooked greens)? Could fill in a bit more minerals. Have you tried a bit of liver? Do you feel better or worse of you eat a bit of potato?
Are you salting your food to taste, or getting any cravings for salty food?

 

[Luann]

If you're still having problems, don't drink commercial orange juice, it's loaded with fluoride which causes me headaches and low self-esteem. Also try life without eating eggs.

 

[chispas]

Maybe try something anti serotonin, something in Haidut's cabinet.

Your serotonin is probably chronically elevated. I think a couple of grams of niacinamide can powerfully shift the balance back to dopamine in the short term.

You need to experiment, and then evaluate your experience.

 

[Richiebogie]

heres my diet:

The coke and ice cream provides sugar without the vitamins and minerals required to metabolize it.

Try replacing these with more OJ, mango, papaya, banana, potato etc.

Also try replacing the whole milk with 32 fl oz 2% fat milk.

These changes should improve mood and temps.

 

[Luann]

So, lets talk about iron and vitamin C together.
You eat liver and beef, about once a day, you said. Honestly that's on the high side of iron intake. Vit C can irritate iron stores that you already have not to mention it increases the bio-availability of what you're putting into yourself (iron-wise.)

 

[sladerunner69]

I'll tell you what I do.

Vitamins A, D, K - These have elminated acne, dental issues, mouth sores, etc. Still have dandruff.
I do 6 Tbsp gelatin a day.
I've taken cyproheptadine every day for the past 4 months. My digestion is pretty much excellent.
I take about 2 grains of armour. My T4 tested at the top of the range.
i drink a half gallon of milk a day
2 pastured eggs a day
beef usually at some point
orange juice
0% greek yogurt
fruit
oysters
I take about 300 mg pregnenolone a day, which I found allowed me to tolerate the armour, at first.

My heart is always racing and my hands and feet are always ice cold. I feel just as bad as i did 5 years ago! maybe worse. no progress!!!!!!

Your heart is racing because your metabolism si probably over stimulated. I take it your pretty young right? Like my age in your early twenties? Your metabolism should already be excellent, and it should be flexible to most things your would be exposed to. It takes a few decades of shitty eating and exposure to "toxins" and chemicals to damage the metabolism, the people who beenfit most from Peat diets are in their 40's 50's and beyond. IMO your problems sound like more of a mental disturbance, like an existential crisis. You shouldn't even need special dieting to be happy. Many of my buddies eat fast food all day, drink beers all night, smoke bud here and there, and are plenty happy. Because they are young and have no worries.

I feel like you need to focus more on yourself, on staying positive, on living a stimulating life, meeting new people, forging relationships, doing all of the things young men do to feel like they are chasing their dreams. There is much more to life than eating healthy, although it can be very helpful.

 

[sladerunner69]

300mg of pregnenelone per day is a HUGE dose. I can't tolerate anything more than 20mg. You know that most of that is beign converted to progesterone right? That opposes androgens, and could definitely cause depression.

 

[Dopamine]

You sound like you have undiagnosed ADHD. I think I am the same way... Very large doses of coffee + theanine have been helping me. Also have you tried no fap/no porn for a full 90 days? If you think ADHD could be the problem: Maybe if you talked to a doctor and got diagnosed your parents would be a bit more understanding while you get your ***t together?

 

[DaveFoster]

Just as a note, Mormons have high depression rates. They don't drink coffee. Correlation.

 

[LUH 3417]

Nothing ******* works. Been going at this for 5 years. 5 damn years. I'm thinking about ending the misery. Taking all this ******* crap. Armour. Pregnenolone. I eat all the right foods. My digestion is excellent. I've taken all the antihistamines and other crap. Quit my job. Quit school. Sit around and do nothing all day. Stop masturbating. Nothing ******* works. I am seeing a broda barnes doctor and nothing ******* works. My parents want to kick me out and they're sick of me spending all this money. What do I do? Go to the mayo clinic? Seriously what do I ******* do when all doctors have no solutions. Sorry, but I am just so angry and so sick of this. I can't play doctor like this. I don't have the energy for it. What do I do?

have you ever tried experimenting with psilocybin? i know it's kind of extreme, but it always gets me out of existential ruts. even if i have a bad trip it shakes things up a bit. also, maybe listen to some youtube videos by Alan Watts. he talks a lot about you can't have the good without the bad. I understand where you are coming from. I deal with depression everyday for the past 13 years or so. I sweat all the time to the point that I can't touch people and feel comfortable. I always feel sick. But some days I'm really happy and excited about life despite it. I don't have any useful advice but you mentioned needed drugs so psychoactive might be a good place to start.

 

[biggirlkisss]

liubo dont they filter the water out with orange juice?

 

[Gl;itch.e]

I hope OP is alright but IMO this is a mental health issue, not a physical health one. Health improves a lot by living a fun life striving towards some kind of goal or purpose.

 

[biggirlkisss]

a goal brings passion though and desire for success.