This is the problem...Ive been hypogonadal for 20 months now...shut down....it started by losing a relationship, then job, then came off 3 yr run of testosterone cypionate and trenbolone E, 500 to 750 mgs a week...for 3 YEARS straight, no breaks, no pct....at 38-41. It's messed me up so bad that Im in severe depression and anxiety...debilitated, haven't been able to work...have no money...need to get better to work, need to work to get better. This has caused me to age rapidly, having horrible joint pain..been impotent for 20 months...no blood flow to extremities, no nocturnal erections...no erections ever...penile tissue loss, damaged vessels...afraid penis is damaged forever and also will never recover in size. My skin has aged horribly...cant keep muscle, just regular muscle...bone density loss, insulin resistance, I'm in prexiaberic stage because low t. Not real sure if it's primary or secondary....is there anyone knowledgeable I can speak to over phone....its asking a lot...but I'm in horrible shape and can't explain my situation well on this message board.