L_C
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Reading your post raises some questions. You dated this girl for 7 years but it seems like you went through some major physiological changes, such as losing weight, grey hair etc. I mean what happened? Did you stop working on yourself? Focusing more on her? Or ate bad diet? People should not age so much within such a short time, given you are still very young.Yeah I have been taking thee magnesium, zinc, and calcium. I eat about 2 eggs each morning as its hard for me to get down more. I could probably do 3 if its an omelette or scrambled. Even with all that, its not enough man. What I'm going through is so intense. I really need something extra that will really calm me down, especially in the mornings and during the day.. and also something that will make me feel happy and this depression is overwhelming. And I'm really unable to actually fall asleep.. like at all. Without that horrible sleeping pill, I would be up all night.
One of the big issues for me I guess is that I feel really unattractive. I met her 7-8 years ago, and back then I was actually handsome. But in those years, I became a type 1 diabetic which made me loose a ton of weight and all my muscle.. now I am underweight and look like a shell of myself. My hair has gotten thinner and very grey , and my face looks aged. All that makes me feel like I won't find another girl.. or one as good as my ex.. and I have this overwhelming feeling that I am gonna be alone forever. That makes it all so much more difficult to accept and part of why I'm freaking out so much. Sure I can work out a bit, but it won't change a lot. I met her when I was 29 and looking really good, now I'm 37 and looks really unattractive. Girls don't even look at me anymore. If I felt like I could attract a girl as attractive or better than my ex, then I think I would be a little more relaxed and confident. But I feel like that won't happen so I'm freaking out. I just wish it didn't end with her and I wouldn't be in this mess.