Log: I didn't take W. yesterday and won't today. This morning woke up before dawn and started to get frightened, thinking that if I did have serious withdrawal, I am just not up to it, and my backup systems are not adequate (husband with serious PTSD, older parents in poor health, children who love me, but may not be up for a parent with a serious meltdown.. ) I saw my husband was up playing Doom, and hoped he might be in good enough shape to talk rationally about it. Luckily, he was, and it helped to talk about it. My son, who is visiting, happened to wake up, and he was comforting, too. I just got all fearful that I could go nuts and hurt someone. Adrenalin, of course. I had the thought that I may feel different now and have to adjust to a different way of feeling. I haven't been off antidepressants in twenty years. I guess, usually, If I wake up with the adrenalin thing in the morning, I feel negative and depressed, but not frightened like that. Anyway, I feel good now, and we are about to go buy some delicious guavas from someone.