Elchapchapchapo
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Hey whats up guys am starting a new journey that I want to document and type about and share along the way with concepts and ideas I've learned over the years.
So where I am currently is in a weird state. I have had this same state of being on loop for over a couple years now which is utterly depressing, hopeless, and helpless - not really getting anything done, having fatigue, having brain fog, losing motiviation, being irritated frequently, not really having emotions or feelings and feeling like a broke person.
So that is where I am coming from, it is so much better than what it use to be but still do not feel quite right, I have faced many hard and terrible days isolated and away from a lot of the world because the way i was functioning made me want to avoid everything and everyone because I felt broke. I still feel this way and have minor brain fog even as I am typing this but it is much better than what it was. I really just have a desire to fully be myself again and to just feel normal and I feel like it is on the horizon and hope to reach this soon.
So where I want to head is to a state of thriving, which is basically a few bumps up the state of being chart from where I am now. Having a **** ton of energy, killing it financially, having tons of friends rich in being and abundant warmth and connectedness, being a warm open and loving person and have an amazing sex life. Ultimately just living a sexy life full of life.
My biggest issue right now is the brain fog / confusion like feelings and deadness emotionwise. It is such a ******* damper and I have felt this for well over a year and its like ground hog day. I feel stuck because of this. And its like wake up .."okay its still there, I know how this days going to go", day is uber boring and thennnnn go to bed. I need to bring life back into my vessel and start overflowing life into life. That is where its at. Also have this non sexuality feeling in my genitals which is annoying. Sometimes can have a decent libido but other times it just feels....dead and numb no fire no passion no nothing. Its a huge annoyance of mine that it doesn't work.
So how I plan to get there is obviously with diet and beasting out on calories as well as utilizing hormones and other supplements which can contribute to my well being. Currently don't have clear indications on my temps or calorie count, but I have a decent guess and with temps I know I am in the 97.9 - 98.3 range usually with temps breaking into 99. For calories I usally eat 2000-2500 so currently undereating.
I think that my enviornment may contain mold in it, but it is hard to get out due to not working really for the last year and not having enough financially to make a move. I really would love to move as my current environment really sucks the life out of me and is a total drain. Debt has also stacked up a bit which makes it harder for me to make a play. Long story short being not well sucks and most people don't truly understand which can be painful, it feels like you are doing it on your own.
I currently have a mirad of supplements which I bounce around on which can be both very on point and also off because I have no idea what is doing what or when it is doing what. Most frequently taken are
MB - daily 2mg-5mg
Thyroid - on and off depeneding on how I feel
Pansterone - 2 drops once everyweek
Emodin - everynight
Phosphydatylserine
Vitamin e
Aspirin
Activated Charcoal
Penecillian
Taurine
Lisuride
Really I know what I desire is in reach, just need to tweak somehings, move out of my environment, build enough energy to inject my creative ideas back into my business and really get it going, getting out of this decreped state and into a fruitful being. This will be a place where I share a lot of my ideas and also my biochemical journey which will lead to overflowing abundance. I will mention ahead of time I am an open person and enjoy a range of topics and hope you enjoy what is to come
So where I am currently is in a weird state. I have had this same state of being on loop for over a couple years now which is utterly depressing, hopeless, and helpless - not really getting anything done, having fatigue, having brain fog, losing motiviation, being irritated frequently, not really having emotions or feelings and feeling like a broke person.
So that is where I am coming from, it is so much better than what it use to be but still do not feel quite right, I have faced many hard and terrible days isolated and away from a lot of the world because the way i was functioning made me want to avoid everything and everyone because I felt broke. I still feel this way and have minor brain fog even as I am typing this but it is much better than what it was. I really just have a desire to fully be myself again and to just feel normal and I feel like it is on the horizon and hope to reach this soon.
So where I want to head is to a state of thriving, which is basically a few bumps up the state of being chart from where I am now. Having a **** ton of energy, killing it financially, having tons of friends rich in being and abundant warmth and connectedness, being a warm open and loving person and have an amazing sex life. Ultimately just living a sexy life full of life.
My biggest issue right now is the brain fog / confusion like feelings and deadness emotionwise. It is such a ******* damper and I have felt this for well over a year and its like ground hog day. I feel stuck because of this. And its like wake up .."okay its still there, I know how this days going to go", day is uber boring and thennnnn go to bed. I need to bring life back into my vessel and start overflowing life into life. That is where its at. Also have this non sexuality feeling in my genitals which is annoying. Sometimes can have a decent libido but other times it just feels....dead and numb no fire no passion no nothing. Its a huge annoyance of mine that it doesn't work.
So how I plan to get there is obviously with diet and beasting out on calories as well as utilizing hormones and other supplements which can contribute to my well being. Currently don't have clear indications on my temps or calorie count, but I have a decent guess and with temps I know I am in the 97.9 - 98.3 range usually with temps breaking into 99. For calories I usally eat 2000-2500 so currently undereating.
I think that my enviornment may contain mold in it, but it is hard to get out due to not working really for the last year and not having enough financially to make a move. I really would love to move as my current environment really sucks the life out of me and is a total drain. Debt has also stacked up a bit which makes it harder for me to make a play. Long story short being not well sucks and most people don't truly understand which can be painful, it feels like you are doing it on your own.
I currently have a mirad of supplements which I bounce around on which can be both very on point and also off because I have no idea what is doing what or when it is doing what. Most frequently taken are
MB - daily 2mg-5mg
Thyroid - on and off depeneding on how I feel
Pansterone - 2 drops once everyweek
Emodin - everynight
Phosphydatylserine
Vitamin e
Aspirin
Activated Charcoal
Penecillian
Taurine
Lisuride
Really I know what I desire is in reach, just need to tweak somehings, move out of my environment, build enough energy to inject my creative ideas back into my business and really get it going, getting out of this decreped state and into a fruitful being. This will be a place where I share a lot of my ideas and also my biochemical journey which will lead to overflowing abundance. I will mention ahead of time I am an open person and enjoy a range of topics and hope you enjoy what is to come