I was first introduced to porn when I was around 10 years old by the Playboy channel, which led to masturbation. As I grew into my mid and later teens it became a chronic issue, remaining constant well into my mid to late-20's. The porn was plentiful - especially when it became abundantly accessible on the internet. There were times when I found myself on 2-3 hour marathons late at night.
Looking back at this period of my life I am certain of a few things. The first is that it was a bi-product of depression/anxiety caused by a stressful family life. My parents were always fighting (father has struggled with alcoholism/my mother is a co-dependent) and it's my belief that I developed OCD-like behaviors to cope. Hell, there was a period as I was growing up where I would literally bite off the thickened skin on the pads under my toes and bottom of my feet. Eventually that subsided, but masturbation didn't.
I'm in my late 30's now and have more self-control. I go periods of a couple of weeks where I won't masturbate, but I'll have some weekends where it might happen 3-4 times. Ultimately I've wondered what kind of damage I did to my body - particularly from a development standpoint, as well as brain chemistry. I'm pretty certain it's played a heavy role in my hair loss, possible hormone/thyroid issues, excessive body hair, low energy levels, and a pervasive "detached" feeling.
Anyone have any insight on the subject?
Looking back at this period of my life I am certain of a few things. The first is that it was a bi-product of depression/anxiety caused by a stressful family life. My parents were always fighting (father has struggled with alcoholism/my mother is a co-dependent) and it's my belief that I developed OCD-like behaviors to cope. Hell, there was a period as I was growing up where I would literally bite off the thickened skin on the pads under my toes and bottom of my feet. Eventually that subsided, but masturbation didn't.
I'm in my late 30's now and have more self-control. I go periods of a couple of weeks where I won't masturbate, but I'll have some weekends where it might happen 3-4 times. Ultimately I've wondered what kind of damage I did to my body - particularly from a development standpoint, as well as brain chemistry. I'm pretty certain it's played a heavy role in my hair loss, possible hormone/thyroid issues, excessive body hair, low energy levels, and a pervasive "detached" feeling.
Anyone have any insight on the subject?
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