Nomane mentioned "incest" and "homosexuality" up there, and well, as is the case with many OCD people I actually struggle with all sorts of dirty, disturbing intrusive sexual thoughts, incest and homosexuality among them.
I'm pretty sure I was abused as a kid, but I don't think it was a family member. But this degree of guilt and disgust around sexuality seems to usually involves incest. There's a thread by a girl on Reddit who has incest trauma and she feels so dirty she sometimes sleeps in the bathtub.
In my case this manifests as disgust/guilt over my own semen, which is to say disgust/guilt over my own masturbation, which is to say (possibly) disgust/guilt over my own (potentially incestuous) pleasure. I feel guilty/nervous about pleasure in general (whether it's from drugs, food, a movie), it's a kind of self-punishment/masochistic thing. Lacan wrote a lot about jouissance and the stuff he wrote about jouissance and neurosis rings a bell with me. I should dig deeper into Lacan.
I'm pretty sure I was abused as a kid, but I don't think it was a family member. But this degree of guilt and disgust around sexuality seems to usually involves incest. There's a thread by a girl on Reddit who has incest trauma and she feels so dirty she sometimes sleeps in the bathtub.
In my case this manifests as disgust/guilt over my own semen, which is to say disgust/guilt over my own masturbation, which is to say (possibly) disgust/guilt over my own (potentially incestuous) pleasure. I feel guilty/nervous about pleasure in general (whether it's from drugs, food, a movie), it's a kind of self-punishment/masochistic thing. Lacan wrote a lot about jouissance and the stuff he wrote about jouissance and neurosis rings a bell with me. I should dig deeper into Lacan.