Lilac
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I think you are onto the causes of your ruminations and OCB: metabolism and general health. When you improve those, the intrusive thoughts will diminish if not disappear.
I had something similar going on back when I was (undiagnosed) hypothyroid. This will sound a bit ridiculous, but I developed a kind of post-traumatic stress disorder from--get this--losing my purse. I had been shopping, had a lot of bags and parcels, put my purse down on a display to tie a shoe, and then left the store without the purse. When I got home, ten miles away, I missed my purse--panic! panic!--and figured out exactly what had happened. I called the store, and--miracle--someone had turned the purse in. I drove back, and nothing was missing. Now, that was lucky and all should have been well. But for many years after that, if I was driving along and could not see my purse, I would be very uneasy. A terrible feeling I could not rationalize away. On occasion, I would have to pull over and get my purse from out of the back and put it next to me. When I fixed my metabolism, that bad, obsessive feeling pretty much disappeared.
And do keep in mind that corny old trope that other people are not focusing on you the way you do upon yourself. Most people are in a bubble of their own experience. And few are so mean that they will look down on you for common foibles, let alone remember them.
I had something similar going on back when I was (undiagnosed) hypothyroid. This will sound a bit ridiculous, but I developed a kind of post-traumatic stress disorder from--get this--losing my purse. I had been shopping, had a lot of bags and parcels, put my purse down on a display to tie a shoe, and then left the store without the purse. When I got home, ten miles away, I missed my purse--panic! panic!--and figured out exactly what had happened. I called the store, and--miracle--someone had turned the purse in. I drove back, and nothing was missing. Now, that was lucky and all should have been well. But for many years after that, if I was driving along and could not see my purse, I would be very uneasy. A terrible feeling I could not rationalize away. On occasion, I would have to pull over and get my purse from out of the back and put it next to me. When I fixed my metabolism, that bad, obsessive feeling pretty much disappeared.
And do keep in mind that corny old trope that other people are not focusing on you the way you do upon yourself. Most people are in a bubble of their own experience. And few are so mean that they will look down on you for common foibles, let alone remember them.