blue_lotus
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I just wanted to share an observation ive made. So I ruminate over past embarrassing events 24/7, I always have. I think its related to my overarching OCD problem (that is, embarrassing memories become intrusive thoughts). one thing ive noticed that stops rumination over embarrassing memories is being drunk or being in a really good mood. ive concluded that a large part of my issue probably involves dopamine levels. likewise, when im in a stressful situation and dopamine levels are low I compulsively think about embarrassing events or things that make me angry etc.
has anyone else here noticed a similar pattern WRT happiness and the cessation of compulsive rumination of embarrassing events?
in my mind I see myself as someone prone to cringey/embarrassing behavior and I dont deny that theres some truth to this. however, I do feel like my own self-perception gets warped significantly depending on my mood. I feel like this is related to the broader phenomena of comedowns from stims (cocaine, adderall etc) and the extremely dark and realistic depression it can cause
has anyone else here noticed a similar pattern WRT happiness and the cessation of compulsive rumination of embarrassing events?
in my mind I see myself as someone prone to cringey/embarrassing behavior and I dont deny that theres some truth to this. however, I do feel like my own self-perception gets warped significantly depending on my mood. I feel like this is related to the broader phenomena of comedowns from stims (cocaine, adderall etc) and the extremely dark and realistic depression it can cause