noodlecat
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My mom has three covid shots. She tested positive shortly after getting her last one and my sister came by to help take care of her. My sister works in healthcare specifically for respiratory therapy. She also thinks vaxxed vs unvaxxed
is somewhat of a meaningful distinction. I asked her what she gave my mom and she said tylenol. I blurted out “that’s fuc**ng retarded” and she got really mad saying essentially she is a healthcare worker and I’m not. I read haidut’s article Aspirin beneficial, other NSAID harmful, for COVID-19 – To Extract Knowledge from Matter on aspirin vs other nsaids. But it wasn’t only that. My sister has had a position on vaxxed and unvaxxed, it wasn’t outright and authoritarian but she actually had a notion about there actually being a point in not letting unvaxxed mingle with vaxxed during christmas times. I never said anything to keep the peace but it was slightly annoying to know.
I thought about apologizing but I don’t really want to. I felt a little bad for being mean when she was trying to be helpful but at the same time I’m a little fed up with healthcare workers. I admit I wasn’t feeling good otherwise I wouldn’t have been so mean. Anyways my mom is fine. She was barely ill from what I could see. My family members made her wear a mask at home which I thought was a little pointless and stupid.
I’m also not speaking to my other sister either for a variety of reasons but something that bothered me was how she told me I probably wouldn’t be allowed to a family friend’s wedding because I didn’t take the shot. I don’t know how true it is but I was struck by the way in which my sister said it to me. She was kind of glib about it, but she probably didn’t mean it to sound so offensive. It’s probably me projecting a bit, actually it definitely is. I think I’m being rude to my family members for not ever voicing any opposition to all this stuff that went on for two years.
I’m sure if my health was top notch at the time none of this would have bothered me. What I notice though, is the almost complete lack of guilt or pressing want to apologize. I don’t want to apologize and make up, whereas before in situations like this I would. It’s a more involved issue than I can go into here without a short novel about it. Basically I’m dissapointed in the attitudes and behaviors of my family members and I’m not interested in forcing my viewpoints on them. I have a lot of acceptance now even when I know they’re wrong but at the same time I will openly tell them they’re “fuc***ng retards” if I feel pushed/insulted enough to it. Well, the goal is to not let myself be triggered into negative thoughts or outbursts about when I feel slighted.
The reason I mention it is because although obviously I’m not a top tier example of health because I get myself into these stupid situations of displeasure, the lack of nervousness and guilt or shame over it is something new for me. A year ago I was feeling terrible one morning and got into a yelling match with my dad saying I won’t take the mark of the beast and so on, lol. I couldn’t do that now. Not that long ago I would be desperate to patch things up but now, I just don’t care that much, and I am fine with it. I don’t think I’m really bottling anything negative up, either.
It’s nice, to not feel like I need to express my opposition anymore. Keeping my opinions to myself is one of the best parts about improving health. I have no neurotic need to get into arguments as much. When I feel good there is not even a slight urge to argue a position to someone. That day I insulted my sister when my mom tested positive for covid, i was feeling terrible in the morning. as my health is improving the mornings are getting better so I don’t think I’d be in a mind state to say such mean things anymore.
is somewhat of a meaningful distinction. I asked her what she gave my mom and she said tylenol. I blurted out “that’s fuc**ng retarded” and she got really mad saying essentially she is a healthcare worker and I’m not. I read haidut’s article Aspirin beneficial, other NSAID harmful, for COVID-19 – To Extract Knowledge from Matter on aspirin vs other nsaids. But it wasn’t only that. My sister has had a position on vaxxed and unvaxxed, it wasn’t outright and authoritarian but she actually had a notion about there actually being a point in not letting unvaxxed mingle with vaxxed during christmas times. I never said anything to keep the peace but it was slightly annoying to know.
I thought about apologizing but I don’t really want to. I felt a little bad for being mean when she was trying to be helpful but at the same time I’m a little fed up with healthcare workers. I admit I wasn’t feeling good otherwise I wouldn’t have been so mean. Anyways my mom is fine. She was barely ill from what I could see. My family members made her wear a mask at home which I thought was a little pointless and stupid.
I’m also not speaking to my other sister either for a variety of reasons but something that bothered me was how she told me I probably wouldn’t be allowed to a family friend’s wedding because I didn’t take the shot. I don’t know how true it is but I was struck by the way in which my sister said it to me. She was kind of glib about it, but she probably didn’t mean it to sound so offensive. It’s probably me projecting a bit, actually it definitely is. I think I’m being rude to my family members for not ever voicing any opposition to all this stuff that went on for two years.
I’m sure if my health was top notch at the time none of this would have bothered me. What I notice though, is the almost complete lack of guilt or pressing want to apologize. I don’t want to apologize and make up, whereas before in situations like this I would. It’s a more involved issue than I can go into here without a short novel about it. Basically I’m dissapointed in the attitudes and behaviors of my family members and I’m not interested in forcing my viewpoints on them. I have a lot of acceptance now even when I know they’re wrong but at the same time I will openly tell them they’re “fuc***ng retards” if I feel pushed/insulted enough to it. Well, the goal is to not let myself be triggered into negative thoughts or outbursts about when I feel slighted.
The reason I mention it is because although obviously I’m not a top tier example of health because I get myself into these stupid situations of displeasure, the lack of nervousness and guilt or shame over it is something new for me. A year ago I was feeling terrible one morning and got into a yelling match with my dad saying I won’t take the mark of the beast and so on, lol. I couldn’t do that now. Not that long ago I would be desperate to patch things up but now, I just don’t care that much, and I am fine with it. I don’t think I’m really bottling anything negative up, either.
It’s nice, to not feel like I need to express my opposition anymore. Keeping my opinions to myself is one of the best parts about improving health. I have no neurotic need to get into arguments as much. When I feel good there is not even a slight urge to argue a position to someone. That day I insulted my sister when my mom tested positive for covid, i was feeling terrible in the morning. as my health is improving the mornings are getting better so I don’t think I’d be in a mind state to say such mean things anymore.
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