lindsay
Member
Hi Purelaur.
I just want to chime in to this and tell you that you don't have to be defined by your eating disorder - that is your choice.
I developed Anorexia at the age of 13 and struggled with it on and off until I was about 30 - when my health spiraled downward. Most of my adult life was spent worrying about what I put in my mouth (both because of weight and digestive problems - which led to me being bulimic as well). I felt very ashamed of my "condition" - modern medicine doesn't know how to deal with eating disorder patients, and neither do most psychologists. In my opinion, the trouble with an eating disorder is best understood biologically - once I realized what was going on IN my body (high stress hormones, which made me feel manic and at times euphoric, and eventually led to complete system malfunction), then I felt like I had the ability to positively affect my health.
It's been a VERY slow recovery from where I began - I still have amenorrhea, digestive issues and endocrine disrupt, but I feel more balanced now and I can evaluate my health from a healthy mindset instead of freaking out about it. You are ten years younger than me, which means you now have the ability to learn and gain control at a younger age, which is very important.
Once you empower yourself in your health endeavors, you will start to see the difference.
I just want to chime in to this and tell you that you don't have to be defined by your eating disorder - that is your choice.
I developed Anorexia at the age of 13 and struggled with it on and off until I was about 30 - when my health spiraled downward. Most of my adult life was spent worrying about what I put in my mouth (both because of weight and digestive problems - which led to me being bulimic as well). I felt very ashamed of my "condition" - modern medicine doesn't know how to deal with eating disorder patients, and neither do most psychologists. In my opinion, the trouble with an eating disorder is best understood biologically - once I realized what was going on IN my body (high stress hormones, which made me feel manic and at times euphoric, and eventually led to complete system malfunction), then I felt like I had the ability to positively affect my health.
It's been a VERY slow recovery from where I began - I still have amenorrhea, digestive issues and endocrine disrupt, but I feel more balanced now and I can evaluate my health from a healthy mindset instead of freaking out about it. You are ten years younger than me, which means you now have the ability to learn and gain control at a younger age, which is very important.
Once you empower yourself in your health endeavors, you will start to see the difference.