Ok. So I believe that "I have the kundalini", "have undergone a kundalini awakening", or however one may put it. The symptoms began toward the end of 2006, when I got my braces removed. In fact I found out it was a Kundalini thing when, after googling my symptoms, I finally found a post in some weird conspiracy/new age forum where a guy underwent the same thing. Braces removed, onset of symptoms.
In the beginning the symptoms were basically a strange feeling on my face. It felt all distorted, like a Picasso painting. Then I looked in the mirror and it was normal. But it's like my face "thought" it was distorted. It would reflect in my facial muscles, because sometimes both my eyelids would be askew, like this / / instead of this _ _ (I mean the "lines" you see when your eyes are half-closed).
Also a throbbing throughout my whole body. In the rhythm of my heartbeat. And there's a pattern: it always "pushes" in one direction and then the opposite, you know, tic tac tic tac. Just a slight muscular movement. In my thighs, my back, my fingers, my head. Sometimes visible in my eyelashes, when I'm waking up and the eyelashes are just a blur before my eye, the blur goes hither and thither like an animated gif.
It doesn't stop there. Last year a sagittal keel appeared on the top of my head. A ridge through the center of my skull. And I've been seeing lights when I close my eyes in bed at night. Like lightning. But like a weak yellow ceiling lamp light. But trust me I'm talking lights out, total darkness, eyes closed, and then these flashes.
I took venlafaxine for a while starting in 2008, and it made the weird symptoms subside significantly. I took escitalopram and it did the same thing. But those two meds are SSRIs. Lately I've been taking tianeptine, the Peat approved SSRE (as in selective serotonin reuptake "enhancer" rather than "inhibitor"), and it works great in terms of improving my mood... but it makes the kundalini stuff stronger. I've been getting some major throbs throughout my body. But I really don't want to take SSRIs again.
I should mention that one time, two or three years ago, I took some cynomel and the throbbing and weird face feeling went away for a few hours too. So maybe there is a peaty way I can tackle this. I haven't tried supplementing pregnenolone yet, but since SSRIs are said to "upregulate pregnenolone", maybe it's worth a shot?
So... anyone have the slightest idea about this?
In the beginning the symptoms were basically a strange feeling on my face. It felt all distorted, like a Picasso painting. Then I looked in the mirror and it was normal. But it's like my face "thought" it was distorted. It would reflect in my facial muscles, because sometimes both my eyelids would be askew, like this / / instead of this _ _ (I mean the "lines" you see when your eyes are half-closed).
Also a throbbing throughout my whole body. In the rhythm of my heartbeat. And there's a pattern: it always "pushes" in one direction and then the opposite, you know, tic tac tic tac. Just a slight muscular movement. In my thighs, my back, my fingers, my head. Sometimes visible in my eyelashes, when I'm waking up and the eyelashes are just a blur before my eye, the blur goes hither and thither like an animated gif.
It doesn't stop there. Last year a sagittal keel appeared on the top of my head. A ridge through the center of my skull. And I've been seeing lights when I close my eyes in bed at night. Like lightning. But like a weak yellow ceiling lamp light. But trust me I'm talking lights out, total darkness, eyes closed, and then these flashes.
I took venlafaxine for a while starting in 2008, and it made the weird symptoms subside significantly. I took escitalopram and it did the same thing. But those two meds are SSRIs. Lately I've been taking tianeptine, the Peat approved SSRE (as in selective serotonin reuptake "enhancer" rather than "inhibitor"), and it works great in terms of improving my mood... but it makes the kundalini stuff stronger. I've been getting some major throbs throughout my body. But I really don't want to take SSRIs again.
I should mention that one time, two or three years ago, I took some cynomel and the throbbing and weird face feeling went away for a few hours too. So maybe there is a peaty way I can tackle this. I haven't tried supplementing pregnenolone yet, but since SSRIs are said to "upregulate pregnenolone", maybe it's worth a shot?
So... anyone have the slightest idea about this?
