Integra
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@Integra forget about doing a technique to yourself!
Understand with your head, and then let the body process the knowledge.
I just read that article you posted earlier, thank you! I understand a bit better now. I'm trying to learn how to convert knowledge and understanding into an embodied experience. I used to think that tracking my sensations was a good way to be in my body, but it is only good as a method of learning the emotional vocabulary of the body. After that, rather than feeling (inhabiting) the anger, you might go: "A, B, C, D, Anger, E, F, G" and it can become another sophisticated way of avoiding feeling your feelings.
I thought that the suggestion to self-touch and move parts of the body to enable all of you to enter a feeling is brilliant. I realized that I've been doing some of that spontaneously. So the neck area corresponds to moving emotions "into the face", the lower legs to pull them beneath the diaphragm. It's gotten way better now, but I remember as a teenager, I really liked wearing tight jeans and shirts with tight sleeves because it helped me "know where my arms and legs are." How sad is that. Now it's better, but a funny thing, I still can't feel my upper arms and the space between knees and ankles, just like the article mentioned. Haha!
And the fact that we can not only sense & regulate, but also generate our own emotions is something that I completely forgot. My only sources of "generation" were narcissistic, sort of demonic, but I remember how it felt like to "pull energy out of the ground." People used a lot of sun-related imagery to describe me back at my worst, most narcissistic days. If only they knew the dark places that sunshine stemmed from...