Yep, people are so indoctrinated that they will, contrary to what makes sense, get angry when you deviate from the propaganda. I really am thinking about how to handle that when it happens to me.Yeah this whole situation sucks more then it should. My really good friend who is also my coworker suddenly got emotional that I refused testing. I feel guilt, like I did something wrong and actually almost agreed for testing. But after some time I maintained same position. I don't get why he took it personal.
This sh sucks. It feels like I am resisting pointlessly and it's hard to distinguish between gut feeling stand for right thing and stubborn ego display. My personality is prone to foolish stubborness so these times very tricky for me especially when closest friends think you're being dumb. Occassionally it feels really sureal Truman show alike lol.
Apologies for venting, needed to use journaling to let go some frustration.