Terma
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Sorry, I was trying to avoid your question because it is really fucken ugly stuff and I have so much positive ***t going on I don't want to think about it!!! All I can say is: I'm trying to do the 180 degrees polar opposite of what my life has been, from one extreme straight to the other. This protocol is the only way I could ever conceivably do that.Why do they benefit you, what are you dealing with? Also, what made you fall off track?
It makes perfect sense to me now because it's just a form of science. You can't lie to yourself and everyone all the time and call yourself a real scientist in life.
But see, this science has afforded me an incredible wealth of emotion. Everyone sees science as a rigid and painful process... it doesn't have to be at all** :) [In other words, everything aligns perfectly, and to me, there is no conceivable way that science is not the right way forward - my own life was proof] [** Well... it's not true it's not painful - um it was very painful for me lol - it's that you can offset it with an incredible wealth of positivity and hope, and it's all worth it almost immediately to me now - every last effort and transient mental breakdown]
This increase in "consciousness" really seems like it is an increase in power of self-analysis. Which in my mind gives it a tangible purpose. (That might seem a little redundant but I mean in the sense that this was my literal experience)
I wanna warn everyone right now, just in case this gets out of hand:
I am no one's role model. Just stick to science and try everything and don't hold back. If you do otherwise you're only stockpiling future regret for yourself. And this way there's no way you can do the stupid ***t I did.
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