YourUniverse
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When I made my account here I was deep in a depression but hanging on by forcing some self-regimentation, like working and exercising. I was not drinking coffee or taking any stimulants. On that day 1, I had my first latte in a long time. I felt really good. Reading that its healthy in a virtually dose-dependent manner, I was hooked.
Recently I tried coming off of coffee, and all stims (including nicotine, coca cola, chocolate), just to see. After the "withdrawal" period of headache and lethargy, I started to feel OK.
What I noticed:
-sleep did not improve, and I would wake up tired, but not zombified.
-evening sleep time came earlier and earlier, as did morning wake time. Gradually shifted from a little past midnight (to about 9am), to ~10:15 (to about 6:45am).
-initially easier to do tedious things, maybe some dopamine re-sensitizing.
-less frantic hunger pangs/blood sugar troubles. When I was hungry it was no big deal (coffee, like thyroid, made it very stressful).
-small things that I emotionally pushed down bubbled up to the top again. It's like coffee makes me forget unpleasant or stressful things. This sounds like a good thing, but is it?
If I did not drink coffee, and "fixed" all the problems (small or large) that coffee makes me forget or not care about, would I need coffee in the first place? Is coffee an emotional band-aid?
I had coffee this morning and I could not get to the depth of emotion I felt without the coffee. It has vanished from my consciousness. I can of course remember some of the things that caused me stress without coffee, but they only bother me a little now and really not enough to fervently act upon, even though they should probably bother me more. I am unable to access those feelings. It might be worth coming off of coffee (or maybe thyroid.... dont take my advice, though) to access what the subconscious is telling me stresses me, and then use coffee to TACKLE that problem. I think coffee has made me a bit disconnected with stress and I'm not sure its a great thing.
Recently I tried coming off of coffee, and all stims (including nicotine, coca cola, chocolate), just to see. After the "withdrawal" period of headache and lethargy, I started to feel OK.
What I noticed:
-sleep did not improve, and I would wake up tired, but not zombified.
-evening sleep time came earlier and earlier, as did morning wake time. Gradually shifted from a little past midnight (to about 9am), to ~10:15 (to about 6:45am).
-initially easier to do tedious things, maybe some dopamine re-sensitizing.
-less frantic hunger pangs/blood sugar troubles. When I was hungry it was no big deal (coffee, like thyroid, made it very stressful).
-small things that I emotionally pushed down bubbled up to the top again. It's like coffee makes me forget unpleasant or stressful things. This sounds like a good thing, but is it?
If I did not drink coffee, and "fixed" all the problems (small or large) that coffee makes me forget or not care about, would I need coffee in the first place? Is coffee an emotional band-aid?
I had coffee this morning and I could not get to the depth of emotion I felt without the coffee. It has vanished from my consciousness. I can of course remember some of the things that caused me stress without coffee, but they only bother me a little now and really not enough to fervently act upon, even though they should probably bother me more. I am unable to access those feelings. It might be worth coming off of coffee (or maybe thyroid.... dont take my advice, though) to access what the subconscious is telling me stresses me, and then use coffee to TACKLE that problem. I think coffee has made me a bit disconnected with stress and I'm not sure its a great thing.
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