sleepless1
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I suffer from maladaptive daydreaming and dissociation.I feel like I am sleep walking through life, or living in an empty shell with no connection to my 5 senses, and no self-awareness. Days slip by in what feels like minutes. I am constantly lost in my daydreams, which take the form of teaching, or talking to someone, etc.
Co-morbilities: ADD, dissociation. I read that maladaptive daydreaming/dissociation is also a symptom of OCD, but I have no other OCD symptoms. I believe that I have PTSD as well.The traumatic experience that set off my dissociation was a bad experience smoking marijuana in my teens. I had a horrible reaction, cold sweats, prostrated and shaking uncontrollably on the floor, vomiting, vertigo, and fear and panic pulsating throughout my body like I never felt before. After calling an ambulance and being brought to the emergency room some sadistic doctor screamed at me hysterically for smoking marijuanna then locked me in a dark room for the entire night to presumably "teach me a lesson". That night took something out of me and I have been living in a fog ever since. Detached. No self-awareness.
After reading this thread:
I took propranolol, theanine, and magnesium and started to feel human again. This is a feeling that I have not felt in years!
Anyways, propranol causes a brain-block for me, so it is unsustainable to take long term. I am currently in school. I believe the poster of that thread is correct that this is cortisol related. What else can I try?
Currently taking: propranolol, magnesium, theanine, pregnenolone.
Co-morbilities: ADD, dissociation. I read that maladaptive daydreaming/dissociation is also a symptom of OCD, but I have no other OCD symptoms. I believe that I have PTSD as well.The traumatic experience that set off my dissociation was a bad experience smoking marijuana in my teens. I had a horrible reaction, cold sweats, prostrated and shaking uncontrollably on the floor, vomiting, vertigo, and fear and panic pulsating throughout my body like I never felt before. After calling an ambulance and being brought to the emergency room some sadistic doctor screamed at me hysterically for smoking marijuanna then locked me in a dark room for the entire night to presumably "teach me a lesson". That night took something out of me and I have been living in a fog ever since. Detached. No self-awareness.
After reading this thread:
Cortisol And The Five Senses
I was diagnosed with dissociation about six months ago. In trauma research, dissociation is always a byproduct of trauma and therefore seen in PTSD, CPTSD, and some other personality disorders with trauma at their root. So what is dissociation? It's kind of an enigma, but the best description...
raypeatforum.com
I took propranolol, theanine, and magnesium and started to feel human again. This is a feeling that I have not felt in years!
Anyways, propranol causes a brain-block for me, so it is unsustainable to take long term. I am currently in school. I believe the poster of that thread is correct that this is cortisol related. What else can I try?
Currently taking: propranolol, magnesium, theanine, pregnenolone.
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