I have a mood disorder problem. It feels like way way too much energy. I even slapped myself once because its just.... somethings overloaded in my head,thats what it feels like. So I end up shaking my hands up and down, to try and dissipate this energy. It's not painful, just way too much energy. Severely way too much energy. I can still do maths times tables in my head, I can still laugh at jokes from movies, but it doesn't fix the mood.
This mood happens if I need to vomit[eg strep throat, or food poisoning, or glandular fever a few years ago] or when I get digestive issues[loose stools, not weeing out your ****, just unformed premature stools]
If I have a subway, eat half of it, then later eat the rest, thats fine. But if this mood happens, and I walk in the kitchen and see the other subway half, its "too much energy" makes sick. of course, im already in the mood, its not a trigger, but just an example of something "normal" changing to "not normal" when this mood happens. Many other examples.
Normal fight or flight: Risking rejection or job interview, or a car nearly hitting you, I can feel adrenaline[?] in my blood, butterflies stomach and I get the "jelly legs" sometimes. If I go and talk to that stranger[risk rejection], then the fight or flight goes away and I become normal. Or, if its too much I can not talk to the stranger, "walk away" and within short time heartrate etc goes back to normal. See, I can "control" this situations.
Contrast this with my "agitation without fight or flight". I can't "walk away" from my body wanting to vomit, I can't walk away from digestive issues and I can't walk away from this energy. I also can't "face the fear" because there's nothing to face. I've had this for years, I know it wont kill me, there's no "fear" to face. So I can't control this. Is it possible to have this mood and have it not be based on the fight or flight response system? I can add more details if necessary.
This mood happens if I need to vomit[eg strep throat, or food poisoning, or glandular fever a few years ago] or when I get digestive issues[loose stools, not weeing out your ****, just unformed premature stools]
If I have a subway, eat half of it, then later eat the rest, thats fine. But if this mood happens, and I walk in the kitchen and see the other subway half, its "too much energy" makes sick. of course, im already in the mood, its not a trigger, but just an example of something "normal" changing to "not normal" when this mood happens. Many other examples.
Normal fight or flight: Risking rejection or job interview, or a car nearly hitting you, I can feel adrenaline[?] in my blood, butterflies stomach and I get the "jelly legs" sometimes. If I go and talk to that stranger[risk rejection], then the fight or flight goes away and I become normal. Or, if its too much I can not talk to the stranger, "walk away" and within short time heartrate etc goes back to normal. See, I can "control" this situations.
Contrast this with my "agitation without fight or flight". I can't "walk away" from my body wanting to vomit, I can't walk away from digestive issues and I can't walk away from this energy. I also can't "face the fear" because there's nothing to face. I've had this for years, I know it wont kill me, there's no "fear" to face. So I can't control this. Is it possible to have this mood and have it not be based on the fight or flight response system? I can add more details if necessary.
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