GreekDemiGod
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Does life brings you happiness? Do you have something you live for?
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Does life brings you happiness? Do you have something you live for?
Merry Christmas?
I recall this holiday being filled with so much excitement, joy, warmth, and pleasure, yet I woke up this morning with none. How could I partake in such festivities when my everyday existence is one of a striving from my own personal suffering? How easy it is for my family to interact with one another, relishing and finding pleasure in the minute, trivial interactions of movies, preferences, jokes, and conversation. Yet there’s a block in me, as if my cold, hollow interior could feel no joy from such interactions.
Am I at fault? Have I grown too different from my family to relate anymore? Or have I become to cold and hollow to feel joy anymore? Have I turned to false worship, seeing food and drugs as the only means to my reprieve, when the connectedness of human beings could be even more powerful?
I recall when I was younger I could drink myself to ignorant bliss with no problems, and I’d relish in the simple joy of the liberation from anxiety in my drunken joy. As the years went on, and I felt how damaged and degenerative my body’s become, the body would send me a multitude of signals that prevented me from entering such pleasurable states of drunken ecstasy. Well, somehow I’ve managed to put the pieces together well enough today to experience that drunken joy once more, and as I feel the euphoria, buzz, and warmth, I wish everyone well being. Even through the immense doom I’ve experienced, I strive for myself and each one of us the warm blooming fields of health and prosperity.
You can probably experience a similarly anti-stress effect from large amounts of preg/prog, red light, high dose CBD:THC in a 1:1-ish ratio, mushrooms, intense exercise, etc.It's been so long since I've written.
If I were to guess why, it's because I'm hesitant to write when I am unsure of my own beliefs and where I am. When I am more rooted in certainty of myself I feel more confident and expressive in letting thoughts flow into the world as truth.
I'm in the midst of re-orienting my beliefs of what makes solid nourishment. It's crystal clear to me how my being changes as a result of the foods I ingest, and the quality, type, preparation, and integration all can drastically change my well-being.
I had lost the desire and inspiration to discover the truth that is in the foods I consume, and I noticed I slowly became lazier and lazier in accepting whatever nourishment choices I could find. Such a dissipation of responsibility I believe was leading me to a decline rather than a growth. Rather than attempting to build comraderie and positivity, I found myself more wanting to be antagonistic and isolated.
I've noticed that alcohol hands down is almost an instant grounding substance. For whatever reason, my gut/body is stuck in what seems like an anxious, tense state, and it's very difficult to break out of keeping all other aspects of my health considered. Alcohol seems to just annihilate this stress state and grounds me in this world in peace. It's difficult for me to accept because of years of indoctrination and also first hand witness to the disasterous effects alcohol can have on people, yet somehow the positivity I feel from the substance outweighs all of that. What if I can use the drug just like most people drink coffee, or many people use nicotine, or how some people use nootropics. It is a substance that improves my well-being if used correctly.
It's the warmth, peace, and good feelings that drive me to the substance. Until I can replicate such good states by other means, I'll continue to utilize alcohol to maintain my positive affective states towards life.
You can probably experience a similarly anti-stress effect from large amounts of preg/prog, red light, high dose CBD:THC in a 1:1-ish ratio, mushrooms, intense exercise, etc.
If you haven't already tried such things!
I've noticed that alcohol hands down is almost an instant grounding substance. For whatever reason, my gut/body is stuck in what seems like an anxious, tense state, and it's very difficult to break out of keeping all other aspects of my health considered. Alcohol seems to just annihilate this stress state and grounds me in this world in peace. It's difficult for me to accept because of years of indoctrination and also first hand witness to the disasterous effects alcohol can have on people, yet somehow the positivity I feel from the substance outweighs all of that. What if I can use the drug just like most people drink coffee, or many people use nicotine, or how some people use nootropics. It is a substance that improves my well-being if used correctly.
It's the warmth, peace, and good feelings that drive me to the substance. Until I can replicate such good states by other means, I'll continue to utilize alcohol to maintain my positive affective states towards life.
I’m always confused whether I should seek out saints or become a saint myself. Surely the best of human beings is strong enough to be the independent variable around the multitude of causal factors. But how much easier it would be if I were surrounded by good people, as opposed to being the average person attempting to be good among fallen individuals.
I think I am fixed upon a course of goodness, and that ultimately I shall be saved, should I keep myself oriented correctly. [\quote]
I've noticed that alcohol hands down is almost an instant grounding substance. For whatever reason, my gut/body is stuck in what seems like an anxious, tense state, and it's very difficult to break out of keeping all other aspects of my health considered. Alcohol seems to just annihilate this stress state and grounds me in this world in peace. It's difficult for me to accept because of years of indoctrination and also first hand witness to the disasterous effects alcohol can have on people, yet somehow the positivity I feel from the substance outweighs all of that. What if I can use the drug just like most people drink coffee, or many people use nicotine, or how some people use nootropics. It is a substance that improves my well-being if used correctly.
It's the warmth, peace, and good feelings that drive me to the substance. Until I can replicate such good states by other means, I'll continue to utilize alcohol to maintain my positive affective states towards life.
Be careful because that's what everyone says at the beginning... It's not the binge drinkers who get black-out hammered who become addicted, because they only do that parties; no parties, no drinking. It's the people who use it for daily functioning that have to be careful because they tell themselves that it's only a harmless pick-me-up, while a dependency insidiously creeps up.
I'm not entirely sure...just dosed by feel. Beginning with a large dose of each that feels quite sedating, then tapering down to find the MED. Maybe begin with 50 mg's of each? You can take it in the evening to unwind.The preg/prog stuck out to me the most out of everything you suggested...what would be a good dose for your average male?