Darius Jenkins
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- Jan 21, 2019
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hello im an 18 year old male and I suffer from memory loss brain fog and lack of concentration. Ive also been diagnosed with major depressive disorder within the last year. Ive been taking a couple of medications and I got off because I wanted to heal myself eating what ray peat recommends. Since then ive been indulging in my bad porn habit of 6 years. It caused me to have a bad episode and I went to a mental health facility. ive been hospitalized 6 times for this. I take 2 antidepressants bupropion and abilify. The bupropion is 100 mg and the abilify is 5 mg. I take it everyday. They seem to help, but my problems are I have negative thoughts and they seem to go from time to time. I have very bad anxiety and its hard to really talk to my family and other people. I have low self esteem and I think this all comes from what happened when I was a young teen. It was a bad traumatic event and I think about it from time to time. Ive also had a surgery last year. It was in October. I had a varicocele removed and my other testicle had torsion. After the surgery I was very depressed and wanted to kill myself.
I also suffer from low sex drive and im asexual. Females back then were so good looking for me. Now when I stare at one I don't have that same feeling I used to have. I have hope for the future, but I sometimes feel like my life is crumbling before my eyes. For now, im staying on the antidepressants until I feel I don't need them anymore. Im just very confused right now. I need help. I don't know where to start.
I also suffer from low sex drive and im asexual. Females back then were so good looking for me. Now when I stare at one I don't have that same feeling I used to have. I have hope for the future, but I sometimes feel like my life is crumbling before my eyes. For now, im staying on the antidepressants until I feel I don't need them anymore. Im just very confused right now. I need help. I don't know where to start.