LambdaAlpha
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Hello all. I've been a lurker on these forums for quite a while. Some of the methods and ideas here appear sound and reasonable. So i decided to make an account to discuss these topics directly. Here is the story regarding my current health/situation. When i was 18/19 i took accutane do to extremely severe acne (which i believe was due to extremely high androgens) atthe time, i was a fool. I would do anything to get rid of my acne/oily skin (including unknowingly castrate myself). I honestly think i was born a genetic freak , haha. Before accutane i had an insatiable sex drive, almost unquenchable...i took it for granted. I also could build and maintain muscle mass like i was on steroids, extreme hytrophy/muscle definition just from bodyweight exercises etc...deep voice just generally extremely masculine traits. Then comes accutane...within the first week at 50 mg i noticed my libido was decreasing which had NEVER happened in my life...i initially ignored it and thought the end result was worth it. Fast forward 2 months into accutane, libido was still wack, but then a new symptom arose...gynecomastia. I had never had it in my life. Always had perfect small nipples...all of a sudden they were itching and getting puffy and droopy and i could feel actual tissue. A week later a said screw it and quit cold turkey...
A couple of weeks later,Things were decent...libido started to slowly return, albeit i still had minor ed. Gyno was still very prevelant and was debilitating...i'd always tried to show of my pecs as much as possible, now i tried to hide them. I noticed feminine fat distribution in certain parts of my body aswell...hips gained more fat, legs looked feminine, muscle tone decreased, and i ***t you not on this next symptom...my head/skull bone changed. Almost like finasteride users report, like a grey alien look. My skin was mostly acne free and dry as a desert...honestly even with no acne it looked worse. I liked my skin better when it was plump and moist. Also, no longer did i look at almost every girl i see and get aroused...it took alot. Fast forward about a year and a few months later, I'm now 21. My gyno has moistly receded, my muscle tone and anabolic growth i had pre accutane are all back. No more female fat patterns...the strange thing is...i have some symptoms that i never had before accutane at 18, and i don't know if i should continue to blame the accutane or consider this seperate. My libido is iffy. Some days it is 10/10 pre tane levels...other days it's asexual tier. I have ibs c, and gerd severely...i poop little tiny pebbles 99% of the time...it's extremely debilitating, i have severe gerd that causes me to choke and barely get any sleep. I'll hwvebdays were i feel completely normal and amazing. Tjen there's days where i feel like I'm going to drop dead at any second...aka feel like utter garbage dizziness, breathlessness, nausea, general malice. I started researching natural treatments for all of these things, something i never had to do in my life. I was fine 2 years ago. Not anymore...i've sern things like magnesium, zinc, vitamin e, vit d etc. The things that usually work for everyone actually make me worse haha! Except vit d. Magnesium actually makes my gyno/sensitive nipples return, something that hasnt happened in over a year, i have no idea why. Zinc does the same, huge increase in gyno flare, more than mag. Vitamin E instead of increasing my libido, it makes me asexual, and can barely get it up, no joke. The doc said i was vit d deficient and I've been supplimenting since about a week ago. Havn't really noticed anything good or bad. On the outside i look to be perfect health, have a defined ripped body and look general healthy (178, 6'2, 11% bf). Yet on the inside it's like a direct contradiction...it's like my bodies going astray. I look 21 but some days i feel 99. Other days i feel better than i did pre accutane. I honestly have no idea wtf is wrong with me. I've contemplated suicide becsuse the only person that could figure this out is Dr. House. It honestly makes no sense. Feel like I'm switching into different bodies...every second/hour/day/week. I'll feel fine one hour and like garbage the next, i can't pinpoint what changes happened (i.e calorie intake, protein, suppliments etc) when i feel the change so i have no idea wtf is doing it. Did the accutane just jack something up that's irreparable? Did it jack something up that can be fixed with the right suppliments? Or is this something completely seperate from the tane? What do you guys think...please help me i want my life back. People don't believe how miserable i feel somedays when they look at me. They think I'm in tip top shape. Definately not the case...i want to die most days.
A couple of weeks later,Things were decent...libido started to slowly return, albeit i still had minor ed. Gyno was still very prevelant and was debilitating...i'd always tried to show of my pecs as much as possible, now i tried to hide them. I noticed feminine fat distribution in certain parts of my body aswell...hips gained more fat, legs looked feminine, muscle tone decreased, and i ***t you not on this next symptom...my head/skull bone changed. Almost like finasteride users report, like a grey alien look. My skin was mostly acne free and dry as a desert...honestly even with no acne it looked worse. I liked my skin better when it was plump and moist. Also, no longer did i look at almost every girl i see and get aroused...it took alot. Fast forward about a year and a few months later, I'm now 21. My gyno has moistly receded, my muscle tone and anabolic growth i had pre accutane are all back. No more female fat patterns...the strange thing is...i have some symptoms that i never had before accutane at 18, and i don't know if i should continue to blame the accutane or consider this seperate. My libido is iffy. Some days it is 10/10 pre tane levels...other days it's asexual tier. I have ibs c, and gerd severely...i poop little tiny pebbles 99% of the time...it's extremely debilitating, i have severe gerd that causes me to choke and barely get any sleep. I'll hwvebdays were i feel completely normal and amazing. Tjen there's days where i feel like I'm going to drop dead at any second...aka feel like utter garbage dizziness, breathlessness, nausea, general malice. I started researching natural treatments for all of these things, something i never had to do in my life. I was fine 2 years ago. Not anymore...i've sern things like magnesium, zinc, vitamin e, vit d etc. The things that usually work for everyone actually make me worse haha! Except vit d. Magnesium actually makes my gyno/sensitive nipples return, something that hasnt happened in over a year, i have no idea why. Zinc does the same, huge increase in gyno flare, more than mag. Vitamin E instead of increasing my libido, it makes me asexual, and can barely get it up, no joke. The doc said i was vit d deficient and I've been supplimenting since about a week ago. Havn't really noticed anything good or bad. On the outside i look to be perfect health, have a defined ripped body and look general healthy (178, 6'2, 11% bf). Yet on the inside it's like a direct contradiction...it's like my bodies going astray. I look 21 but some days i feel 99. Other days i feel better than i did pre accutane. I honestly have no idea wtf is wrong with me. I've contemplated suicide becsuse the only person that could figure this out is Dr. House. It honestly makes no sense. Feel like I'm switching into different bodies...every second/hour/day/week. I'll feel fine one hour and like garbage the next, i can't pinpoint what changes happened (i.e calorie intake, protein, suppliments etc) when i feel the change so i have no idea wtf is doing it. Did the accutane just jack something up that's irreparable? Did it jack something up that can be fixed with the right suppliments? Or is this something completely seperate from the tane? What do you guys think...please help me i want my life back. People don't believe how miserable i feel somedays when they look at me. They think I'm in tip top shape. Definately not the case...i want to die most days.
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