VitoScaletta
Member
Very stressful and scary time for me today... I have a fear of being thrown out of my educational institutie. I was feeling very suicidal, lots of ***t in my life... Took a few swigs of alcohol and I haven't felt this type of good in a long time... I addressed, although very irresponsibly, my issue at hand which was texting some very authoritarian and dreadful staff member from the institute. It was irresponsible because I depended on my mom and asked her for help in what to write.
Then I felt like going out, and decided to go to the store. When I was picking the fruit at the store I was actually thinking about the fruit and not what's going on behind or around me, when I usually stumble at what I'm doing when there's people around, and listen to what they're saying.
I was more courteous and willing to help other people. I was more receptive but on the things that matter. My words got our easier. This sounds like victimhood but I really felt like a normal person.
I felt a tiny bit less able when it came to defending myself or seducing women. But otherwise, I felt like I had a weight lifted off my chest and I was free to roam the world.
I don't know if this experience could mean that my mental situation is fixable naturally. That state I was in was simply incredible in-terms of anxiety. It's a significant problem in my life and takes away a 1/3 of my energy when I'm outside... Going out like this was incredible. How do I approach this situation?
Then I felt like going out, and decided to go to the store. When I was picking the fruit at the store I was actually thinking about the fruit and not what's going on behind or around me, when I usually stumble at what I'm doing when there's people around, and listen to what they're saying.
I was more courteous and willing to help other people. I was more receptive but on the things that matter. My words got our easier. This sounds like victimhood but I really felt like a normal person.
I felt a tiny bit less able when it came to defending myself or seducing women. But otherwise, I felt like I had a weight lifted off my chest and I was free to roam the world.
I don't know if this experience could mean that my mental situation is fixable naturally. That state I was in was simply incredible in-terms of anxiety. It's a significant problem in my life and takes away a 1/3 of my energy when I'm outside... Going out like this was incredible. How do I approach this situation?