Hi everyone.
I have been reading this forum for over a year.
Some background:
2003 got adult chicken pox, a week after it was over I ended up with severe vertigo, brain fog and memory problems and MS like symptoms. Within 3 months I went from 135 lbs to 230 and my breasts went from a 34 b/c to 44 dd and I got a belly for the first time in my life.
I deteriorated over the following yr until I was bedridden. PTSD got much, much worse. I was also increasingly dependent on an abusive relative who enjoyed the feeling of power he had over me as became more and more helpless. Basically unrelenting stress and zero sense of safety or support for over 4 years until I managed to get away.
I was diagnosed with CFS/ FM and then a year later Lyme
Over the years I have tried many things and have slowly improved but not %100 better.
After finding this forum I began with Preg and noticed a calming effect, improved energy and improved sleep and a reduction in the number of relapses and increased ability to handle stress. I added Progest-e next on its own and noticed feeling more relaxed but with out the preg I would get what I now believe are adrenaline rushes so I added back on the preg and together they are amazing.
I take 10 drops of Tyromix a day spread out, I have settled on this based on my symptoms and after experimenting with NDT and thinking I was getting more hypo due to too much t4.
Next I experimented with some cypro after reading about it on here. It has improved my ability to handle stress and also helped me out of my feelings of helplessness this is what helped me handle the stress of working. It also reduced my urge to drink alcohol and eliminated my suicidal ideation. It also helped me sleep through the night without waking for the first time in as long as I can remember, but I still have sleep onset insomnia.
Sorry for all the background taking so long. Now I would like some input into where to go next. I believe I have low dopamine as the Cypro has made me "dull" and unmotivated. I play a musical instrument and since I began Cypro I dont practice until I have to for a Jam or lesson and its really effected my progress, however when I stop Cypro I get anxiety and suicidal ideation again. I believe I have a lot of healing to do and I am on the right track with with these supplements.
I lower the cypro and Progest-e and preg sometimes to see if I can get off of them but right now I can't and I am fine with that because I think these are what my body needs to heal right now.lowering stress and giving it the hormones and supplements it needs but in the meantime I want to enjoy my music again.
I want to improve my motivation to enjoy playing music again and be self motivated again but without the anxiety and fear that I had before using cypro. I just can;t seem to get off of it at this moment.
Does anyone have any suggestions on where to turn next to increase motivation and enjoyment again?
@haidut
I have been reading this forum for over a year.
Some background:
2003 got adult chicken pox, a week after it was over I ended up with severe vertigo, brain fog and memory problems and MS like symptoms. Within 3 months I went from 135 lbs to 230 and my breasts went from a 34 b/c to 44 dd and I got a belly for the first time in my life.
I deteriorated over the following yr until I was bedridden. PTSD got much, much worse. I was also increasingly dependent on an abusive relative who enjoyed the feeling of power he had over me as became more and more helpless. Basically unrelenting stress and zero sense of safety or support for over 4 years until I managed to get away.
I was diagnosed with CFS/ FM and then a year later Lyme
Over the years I have tried many things and have slowly improved but not %100 better.
After finding this forum I began with Preg and noticed a calming effect, improved energy and improved sleep and a reduction in the number of relapses and increased ability to handle stress. I added Progest-e next on its own and noticed feeling more relaxed but with out the preg I would get what I now believe are adrenaline rushes so I added back on the preg and together they are amazing.
I take 10 drops of Tyromix a day spread out, I have settled on this based on my symptoms and after experimenting with NDT and thinking I was getting more hypo due to too much t4.
Next I experimented with some cypro after reading about it on here. It has improved my ability to handle stress and also helped me out of my feelings of helplessness this is what helped me handle the stress of working. It also reduced my urge to drink alcohol and eliminated my suicidal ideation. It also helped me sleep through the night without waking for the first time in as long as I can remember, but I still have sleep onset insomnia.
Sorry for all the background taking so long. Now I would like some input into where to go next. I believe I have low dopamine as the Cypro has made me "dull" and unmotivated. I play a musical instrument and since I began Cypro I dont practice until I have to for a Jam or lesson and its really effected my progress, however when I stop Cypro I get anxiety and suicidal ideation again. I believe I have a lot of healing to do and I am on the right track with with these supplements.
I lower the cypro and Progest-e and preg sometimes to see if I can get off of them but right now I can't and I am fine with that because I think these are what my body needs to heal right now.lowering stress and giving it the hormones and supplements it needs but in the meantime I want to enjoy my music again.
I want to improve my motivation to enjoy playing music again and be self motivated again but without the anxiety and fear that I had before using cypro. I just can;t seem to get off of it at this moment.
Does anyone have any suggestions on where to turn next to increase motivation and enjoyment again?
@haidut