So I've been researching a lot these past months and I'm starting to get really certain that my problems comes from my secondary hypogonadism. My metabolism/thyroid is and have always been good. I doubt my kidneys/adrenals are burned out or anything. My liver isn't optimal due to using accutane and excessive alcohol but it's not bad either, and it is healing. Why I'm so certain it is secondary is because I do have big testicles and they have not started to atrophy or show any signs of failure yet. But both my T levels and E levels are low (specially estrogen). So are my LH and FSH. So while my testicles are fine, my pituitary doesn't signal them to work as they should. So I get achy joints, feel weak, and low libido (probably because of my very low estrogen levels).
Now some of you may advice me to not do a clomid HPTA restart because it will increase my estrogens, but the thing is I kind of NEED higher estrogen levels. I noticed that when I've tried to lower my estrogen levels (because I thought like everyone else that they were high), my symptoms always gets worse. And I really think I need to restart my pituitary because it has been shutdown from accutane, SSRI (antidepressants) and being a depressive teenager. I feel like I'm in a stable state and just need to wake it up.
I'm thinking of a very low dose for 3 weeks. 12.5 mg a day. The most protocols you read about are for PCT after an AAS cycle and they tend to be higher dose wise and also use strong AI's. I think if I eat good diet wise my estrogens won't shoot up to unhealthy levels (I'm extremely lean so maybe 10 % bodyfat with a decent amount of muscle).
I will have to buy it from the internet because my doctors haven't even heard of a clomid restart, and all think this is in my head and blabla, "your 300 TT levels are good stop worrying!!!" ye for a 80 year old maybe but I'm 21 . So the question is, do you think my self made protocol will work?
And before you advice me to use aspirin, K2, pansterone, coffee, gelatin, sugar etc I've tried them all and either they do nothing or they crash my estrogens/cortisol and make things worse!
Now some of you may advice me to not do a clomid HPTA restart because it will increase my estrogens, but the thing is I kind of NEED higher estrogen levels. I noticed that when I've tried to lower my estrogen levels (because I thought like everyone else that they were high), my symptoms always gets worse. And I really think I need to restart my pituitary because it has been shutdown from accutane, SSRI (antidepressants) and being a depressive teenager. I feel like I'm in a stable state and just need to wake it up.
I'm thinking of a very low dose for 3 weeks. 12.5 mg a day. The most protocols you read about are for PCT after an AAS cycle and they tend to be higher dose wise and also use strong AI's. I think if I eat good diet wise my estrogens won't shoot up to unhealthy levels (I'm extremely lean so maybe 10 % bodyfat with a decent amount of muscle).
I will have to buy it from the internet because my doctors haven't even heard of a clomid restart, and all think this is in my head and blabla, "your 300 TT levels are good stop worrying!!!" ye for a 80 year old maybe but I'm 21 . So the question is, do you think my self made protocol will work?
And before you advice me to use aspirin, K2, pansterone, coffee, gelatin, sugar etc I've tried them all and either they do nothing or they crash my estrogens/cortisol and make things worse!