Good stuff. Thx for writing it up.I've been trying Nofap for the past 2.5 years. The longest I've been able to go without porn and masturbation has been around 57 days. I average about once a week these days as far as porn and masturbation goes.
The first time I tried it, the first 2 weeks were the most exciting; I experienced pretty much all of the benefits people talk about: confidence, energy, better posture,thicker hair, etc. Then I hit the so-called flatline for about a month, and then my libido came raging back. Sadly, I didn't experience any of the benefits once my libido came back; only all encompassing horniness.
Since then, it's been up and down with various streaks and relapses. I still haven't reached that initial high from the first attempt.
As time has passed, with each streak and relapse, it becomes easier to abstain. I've gone from PMO every day to about once a week.
I think everyone's situation is different because porn and masturbation are just two variables. Excessive PMO may cause the problem or it may be the symptom of the problem (whatever that problem may be).
Ultimately, I think it's the excessive ejaculation (more than a particular body can handle) that leads to feelings of lethargy, apathy, depression, and emasculation. It's like being in a constant refractory period, but the porn is what overrides the natural satiety mechanism.
But when I consider the declining testosterone levels in men, the xenoestrogens in our environment, the anti-masculine conditioning through media and public education, PMO becomes one piece of the puzzle.
When I first did NoFap, I realized just how weak my libido and orgasms were. It wasn't until that initial high that I felt like a man, and that my heart was open to love. My perception of the world and of people was always through this tiny little hole that only focused on negativity. With that initial high, my perception widened; it was like seeing in full color with a wide angle lense. Suddenly, people didn't seem so scary, and I could read their emotions very well. I could tell a lot about someone just by looking at their posture or how they walked.
Women were suddenly so exciting to be around. Where before my admiration of a woman's beauty was purely cerebral, now I could appreciate them holistically. Rather than fear or be intimidated by a woman's beauty, I could be relaxed, but excited at the same time by a woman.
I learned that attraction is all in the eyes, and that it's about feeling rather thinking when you're in the moment with a woman. Something about excessive PMO or the resulting hormonal change must make less perceptive to social cues. Or maybe NoFap managed to punch through whatever was causing my inability to relate and connect with people.
Unfortunately, the high wore off, and has yet to return to that initial level. I still experience benefits like increased confidence and optimism, but they come and go. I would say that with all the stuff I've tried on top of NoFap, my condition is improving and the good feelings are increasing while the bad feelings are decreasing.
Taking stuff like Pansterone, Androsterone, Phenibut, and Tianeptine brings on similar feelings to varying degrees. I think Pansterone and Phenibut come closest to recreating those inital benefits. It seems like anything that increases libido and relaxes the body increases those benefits of confidence and wider perspective.
One important thing I've learned since starting NoFap is that your body is just as important as your mind, if not more important. And when I say body, I mean the posture and tone of the tissues. If your posture is bad, our your tissues are tense and unresponsive, then it's going to affect your mindset. Energy and structure and interdependent at every level.
For me personally, I've noticed that emotions and memories are held within the tension of my body. When I've released the tension in certain parts, emotions come up. I think it stands to reason that libido/sexual energy is generated in the lower half, mainly the groin and genitals. If there is tension in that area, then wouldn't it makes sense that it would affect your libido and ability to use your sexual organs as a guide? This is where I might lose you, but I think the genitals, along with the rest of your nervous system, but mostly your genitals, are like an antenna that detects a woman's arousal.
I've had a few experiences where simply standing near a woman has caused an erection, but these women would not stand out in any particular way physically other than I would get this feeling that they were aroused. Yes they were pretty, but I've stood next many pretty women and most of the time, I don't experience anything like this. But that's just a kooky theory of mine; I just wanted to share that. I will say that as I release tension in my body, I notice that certain tissues experience a "surge of energy" when I'm around an attractive woman that seems to be interested in me. Again, kind of kooky, but maybe someone here has a similar experience.
I could write more on this, but I'll stop; this is long enough.