I’m 25 and I can’t tolerate any substance. Thinking back it was the same in high school but Just pushed thru it and didn’t listen to my body.
I’m ok w it and don’t miss these things , but I always beg the question think why? What is going on. Literally 1 drink, 1 hit off a joint, 1 pull of a cigar , and I’m out of it. I don’t mean as in I’m a lightweight.
The cycle is pretty simple. I take a hit , I immediately get a stress response, next I get racing thoughts /irritability, mineral loss ,then insane blood sugar issues, and I become retarded until I have a meal, that cycle is basically everyday even without the drugs and just how I feel I operate. I also very much know that working at a place that doesn’t fulfill me is a huge factor and I need to find something I enjoy that I can monetize. I
Nobody else would know I’m struggling. Following the drink/weed. But immediately I get this pessimistic outlook on everything , and things have a slight negative angle to them, I just feel neurotic and reality is weird. Especially from weed. Its no secret to me that I have a fragile nervous system and most things that even sway me away from homeostasis mess me up. I like predictability and smooth sailing, routine, nature, slow paced life. Don’t like confrontation. Cloudy weather seriously ruins my day. I imagine most ppl don’t like it but I’m just weak mentally when it’s not sunny. It’s bad.
Why can’t i be tolerate a damn hit off a cigar? What does all I said seem to point to^? High serotonin? Mineral dysregulation?
I’m ok w it and don’t miss these things , but I always beg the question think why? What is going on. Literally 1 drink, 1 hit off a joint, 1 pull of a cigar , and I’m out of it. I don’t mean as in I’m a lightweight.
The cycle is pretty simple. I take a hit , I immediately get a stress response, next I get racing thoughts /irritability, mineral loss ,then insane blood sugar issues, and I become retarded until I have a meal, that cycle is basically everyday even without the drugs and just how I feel I operate. I also very much know that working at a place that doesn’t fulfill me is a huge factor and I need to find something I enjoy that I can monetize. I
Nobody else would know I’m struggling. Following the drink/weed. But immediately I get this pessimistic outlook on everything , and things have a slight negative angle to them, I just feel neurotic and reality is weird. Especially from weed. Its no secret to me that I have a fragile nervous system and most things that even sway me away from homeostasis mess me up. I like predictability and smooth sailing, routine, nature, slow paced life. Don’t like confrontation. Cloudy weather seriously ruins my day. I imagine most ppl don’t like it but I’m just weak mentally when it’s not sunny. It’s bad.
Why can’t i be tolerate a damn hit off a cigar? What does all I said seem to point to^? High serotonin? Mineral dysregulation?