St. John's Wort: PSSD Eliminated, Anhedonia Gone, Emotions Online!

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I have tried them all.

I will be doing videos on my YouTube about them:
https://www.youtube.com/c/boostyourbiology/
@Lokzo is this still working for you a year later?
I think something similar happened to me after a series of horrible bad weed trips a few years ago. I also took LSD once in university (a year after the weed panic attacks) and had a bad trip on it too, which was like "the final blow." The feeling I felt during my weed trips was a sudden disconnect from reality, and EXTREME derealization and a mix of very scary feelings and everything felt extremely off after that. In my memory, I remember feeling alive before ever regretfully touching any of these things. I remember emotions, actually feeling things, having a normal libido. Life felt stale after these events. Robotic, etc. Thiamine, Calcium, some Activated Charcoal, and some Methylfolate all make me feel MUCH better. But I don't feel like my old self still. Like these things are helping me across the board but I'm missing my 'spirit' like you say, so to speak.

Also, do you find that you still need to take it? I mean if theoretically whatever happened to me was triggered by a single event, I wanted to see if this could trigger my normal state again. Like you, I wish I could feel sad again. Throughout the years I also got a few flashbacks from various supplements but they were far and few in between. One thing that caught my attention is your mention of the word flashback. Ironically, the last time I smoked weed and had a bad trip years ago, right before the trip I got intense emotional flashbacks that felt extremely nostalgic from my childhood, then the bad trip followed. Like, I could feel an event from my early childhood and it would be extremely nostalgic.
 
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@Lokzo

I think I recall watching a video of yours regarding the 'hangover effect". How does this compare? I notice when I'm hungover that I feel more connected with the world/people. I'm also more positive and generally happier. Libido is also increased, as is body temperature. Basically I feel normal. Has the effect you've got from this SJW comparable?
 
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@Lokzo

I think I recall watching a video of yours regarding the 'hangover effect". How does this compare? I notice when I'm hungover that I feel more connected with the world/people. I'm also more positive and generally happier. Libido is also increased, as is body temperature. Basically I feel normal. Has the effect you've got from this SJW comparable?

yes - the alcohol afterglow effect.
I find there are crossover effects between that and SJW... however, the verbal fluency is better after alcohol.
 

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I tried it, 250 to 500mg per day, for a week. I noticed an increased sense of well being, possibly slightly more motivated, closeness to loved ones increased. Killed my ability to get an erection though. Why might that be? Also twice felt a pain in my left testicle for a brief period.

Is it worth continuing? Or are any of the benefits apparent after the first week of use? I was tempted to try upping my dose to see if that fixed the erection issue, but can't imagine it would.
 
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I tried it, 250 to 500mg per day, for a week. I noticed an increased sense of well being, possibly slightly more motivated, closeness to loved ones increased. Killed my ability to get an erection though. Why might that be? Also twice felt a pain in my left testicle for a brief period.

Is it worth continuing? Or are any of the benefits apparent after the first week of use? I was tempted to try upping my dose to see if that fixed the erection issue, but can't imagine it would.
SSRIs have that same effect...
 

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Are there any updates from OP or other people that took the Remotiv SJW?

I ordered mine 2 weeks ago from Australia (Flordis brand) to Europe, still waiting for it to arrive. Till now only noticed Cypro and NoFap to do some good improvements on my baseline (was hypersexual before SSRI's..), as well as weight lifting and Time (yes, Time seems to do its magic, little by little).
 

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My story:
In 2016, I used dosed Ashwagandha KSM-66. I can’t exactly remember how much, but I remember one specific time after dosing this WAVE of numbness come over me and this VERY dramatic change of headspace. I almost felt like I didn’t care about anything at all. Zero anxiety, zero anticipation for things, just existence, not actually alive. This then lead onto a completely NUMBED orgasm that night, and I was like, hmmmm that was very weird, I should be able to bounce out of this.

Other compounds have definitely worsened me over time:
-Berberine.
-Zinc supplements.
-ALCAR.
-Rhodiola.
-L-Theanine.

SO I waited…. And waited, and waited. Still nothing. 4 years later, still searching for answers, and I had found answers along the way, for sure.

The first one was homeopathic phosphorus 30C. This brought ALL my emotions back online, and made me feel again, it was incredible. I remember hearing birds tweeting near my window, and appreciating this sound and it almost tickling me. Then, I also remember getting that emotional response to music again.
After this, I decided to dabble with Cyproheptadine.
This is unlike many other drugs. In fact, its never something I actively looked forward to taking. Instead, I actually looked forward to what it does following its use.
Eg. How I feel on the withdrawal of the drug.
It makes me feel so fearless and numb on the drug, as in, I can’t feel any emotions, and my appetite goes through the roof. My energy in the gym is ***t on cypro, I feel weak and miserable. No motivation, no life, no vigor, just blah - existence. During this grim days, after using cypro over 25 times in the past 7 months - I know that the rebound is ALWAYS worth it.
This rebound comes EVERY SINGLE TIME…. 4 days AFTER a single 1mg dose. That is, if I take it on a sunday night at 5pm, I will feel like ***t for 3 days and then on day, I get this REBOUND, where my PSSD disappears and this last for a few days on. HOW?!?!?!?

But never did I ever think that there would be a drug that is to be used to RECALIBRATE the brain over time, to recover from this enduring PSSD. It feels like it reconnects that cosy/soft spot of the brain that is required to FEEL music, to feel hot water on skin, to be cosy on the couch, imagine living a life where you can no longer even enjoy relaxing, or having a hot bath, because there’s no emotional response to it, there’s no depth. This is what PSSD has been for me.
But, when the cypro wears off, you feel your YOUNG self re-emerging and all of a sudden FEELINGS come back.
My logic and verbal fluency improve on cypro.

It definitely has its side effects.
Ravenous appetite, minor headaches in the mornings, grogginess/sleepiness (This wears off after repeated use). Eventually, it leaves you feeling resilient and adaptable. Less triggered, much more in control and in tune with your mind, there’s no scatter feeling, you feel clear and hear your own voice, however, your background mind chatter is completely gone when conversing with other people.
Cypro definitely makes me feel clinically depressed the morning after using it. I feel like it sucks ALL the life out of me.
Stop thinking about the future. I find myself way more PRESENT on cypro.
But after realising that every single time that I kept getting bumped out of these windows and then having to RELY on cypro to bounce me back out 4 days after dosing was just too much for me to handle. So I QUIT. I told my dad to take the box away from me.

ENTERING: St. John’s Wort Ze 117 Extract - *The final frontier* - March 19, 2020.
I remember first dosing, not really noticing much at all. In fact, the second day, I actually thought my symptoms were getting worse. I almost quit.

But then, I had something very scary and exciting happen to my brain.

I remember I was half-dreaming one night, and having this grim-reaper looking like entity, standing in front of me. I was a little scared, but he came over to me and really hurt me, did something to my head, but then afterwards I remember laughing and saying thank you, I remember feeling like he had taken away something that was stuck inside me, and then I was free again, a liberating moment.

Anyway, this was then followed by the start of the “random flashbacks of emotions”. This was the first sign that something significant was changing, for the better. Day 4-5 all orgasm feeling and erection feelings were excellent. Morning woods and sexual dreams came back too.

Day 6 on St John's Wort extract (Ze 117) - LOW in hyperforin:
ALL my PSSD symptoms have reversed.... Complete sensation back, feeling, anhedonia disappeared, I have a thrill for life, excitatory response and RANDOM Flashbacks and emotions.


Keep in mind that in the past I had used Perika SJW brand, but this did not help me at all, in fact, I felt hyper-paranoid and anxious and even more numbed on this particular extract.


This is copying what CYPRO does to me on the rebound... But I feel much better using SJW Ze 117 low in hyperforin instead of relying on diabetic cyproheptadine just to feel good. And I feel like this SJW will lead to permanent effects if I stick with it for long enough.

SEXUALITY/PSSD
My refractory period has gone down significantly, I have erotic dreams again and I can have a massive climax and pleasure again. Stronger ‘gasms. Quicker reload. I get erections just staring at hot girls easily, like a 14 year old again.

This is also what I have noticed from St. John's Wort Extract (Positive effects started on day 3, and got WORSE initially):
-Flashbacks and waves of emotions like when I was a child. This was robbed from me, almost as if I had been SSRI'd.
-I started crying at night about my past soccer childhood career that ended… This was an AMAZING feeling, being able to FEEL the pain of crying…. Crying was difficult for me prior to this.
-Hurt feelings when something bad happens, that little stab to the heart feeling is back.
-Difficulty working at a fast pace, because I am emotional or feeling my thoughts which is interrupting my flow state. Usually when I'm numb, I can work insanely quick and find myself in a flow state a lot. This is harder when I am alive again.
-Thrill and excitatory response is back, the suspense feeling is back, I can FEEL a movie or music.
-Less altruistic and more focused on how I can SATISFY myself, more addictive prone, more inclined to take risks.
-More distracted.
-Startle response back.
-Entranced by the music. Tickles and goosebumps are back.
-Emotional flashbacks to when I was younger playing video games at Tato’s.
-Slightly more unusual behaviours and less stable, but more emotional, way more emotional, the emotional depth has come back online fully. That thrill and excitatory response has come back and is like a feeling in the chest that is just there and tickling
-Little bit slower and worsened verbal fluency, but this is because I am now more HEIGHTENED and thrill is back!!!
-Flashbacks to sitting down at primary school for MOVIES in the halls, where we used to sit down and feel that thrill of sitting next to hot girls…. that little excitation of being in , where we used to have assembly’s and I used to get excited if a hot girl sat near me!!!
-Anticipation for the BELL to go, in class, waiting for break, the excitation and thrill to go outside and SHOW off.
-Hyper alert and vigilant.
-Hesitation before speaking, that little thrill is back.

I feel like a re-emergence of my OLD personality is back. I must say though, there were definitely advantages to being NUMB though, but this is a story for another time.


After 4 days of using SJW you have reached steady state dose in plasma and then you could lower the dose maybe against the anxiety. I went from 900 to 600mg to 300mg a day, taking half capsules 2x day. And for me caffeine made me aggressive and anxious, I think because SJW is also an adenosine antagonist like caffeine is and can more easily deplete the dopamine stores. SJW should shift the Serotonin/dopamine balance towards Dopamine. I felt it in my behavior I became more dopamine dominant. Also had high euphoria in the evenings but with lowered focus. But chill.

Here’s some other reports online about SJW helping with anhedonia/PSSD:
“[February 27] I went to the pharmacy immediately and bought SJW 900 mg tablets. I’ve taken them for five days now, and wow… just WOW!

My morning wood is very strong and I get very intense erotic dreams now. At first I was a little afraid, because I read that SJW works like SSRI. But it does not. There are no sexual side effects, except the positive ones. I am a little dizzy, though. Today I had the most intense orgasm since I got PSSD four years ago. I will definitely continue the treatment. I must say, that I already made some progress over the years, but I constantly had to force myself to masturbate. Now I am horny again. There is still much room for improvement, but I made the first step into the door. And this is still the fifth day, where SJW is supposed to fully kick in after 2 – 3 weeks.”


“The first two days I also had the impression that the symptoms got worse a bit. I almost quit to be honest. Then it got better and better. Today is the sixth day and I get strange flashes of emotions I haven’t felt for years. I even forgot about them. This only lasts about a second or two, but it gives me hope, that there is some rewiring going on in my brain. I even had an erotic dream again. The whole four years I had do deal with PSSD I got five erotic dreams in total, which I can remember. Three of them happened this week. ”


“Today is the 10th day of my SJW treatment. My penis was a bit more numb today than the previous days and the orgasm wasn’t very great too. I rose my dose from 900 mg to 1350 mg yesterday, though. Maybe my nervous system has to adjust to the new dosage first. Overall feeling is pretty good. I still get these emotion-flashes which remind me that my capability of having positive emotions hasn’t died yet. Playing computer games is a little bit fun too. I used to be a hardcore-gamer before I got PSSD. When my emotions got numb, I stopped playing. Windows where my condition becomes a little better have occured prior to my SJW treatment, but now they seem to be more often and more intense, but I am far away from being cured.”


“The SSRI-like symptoms are compensated by the effects on dopamine and other neurotransmitters to some extend, I think. To my surprise I had an almost acceptable orgasm yesterday – with an enjoyable buildup. I don’t notice any withdrawal symptoms so far. I think I just quit taking normal doses, before the stuff can make any permanent mess with my receptors. Maybe I should try the OP method and take small doses several times a week, because I am convinced now that this drug has beneficial effects on PSSD.”


“My sexuality has further improved, by the way. Buildup was very good today, the orgasm was longer and more enjoyable and I even noticed a significant increase in semen amount. As a bonus I got a very strong anxiolytic and antidepressive, pleasant effect. I feel good and the reward system functions better. Played Hearthstone yesterday and it was an exciting blast! I must add that I was very anhedonic before I tried SJW (minus the windows). The at first experienced negative sexual side effects have completely faded away. It takes a little bit longer until I cum, but that is a good thing in my case!”


“I would recommend a brand that has the whole bandwidth of active components. I am on “Laif 900″. I live in Germany, don’t know whether it is available in foreign countries, but you can order it via the internet, I guess.”


“As I wrote, SJW impacted my sexuality negatively too. But that faded away. I think it is pretty expectable that an imbalanced system gets initially imbalanced even more when it gets repaired. Antidepressents cure depressions but worsen the symptoms at the beginning of the treatment. Teeth surgery elevates pain before it lessens it in the long run. Antipsychotics can make psychosis worse before it gets better. There is rarely a cure which heals you in an instant without temporary side effects.


But everyone is different. It could very well be that SJW worsens your symptoms in the long run and doesn’t help you at all. You must know for yourself if you take that risk. I am glad that I did. But 1000 mg as the initial dose is very brave. I started with 450 mg which triggered an uncomfortable panic attack.”


“This is the best thing that happened to me in a long time! I thank the OP so much, you are my hero man! :) Also thanks to Ghost for encouraging me to give it another try!”


“UPDATE: I can’t believe what is happening! Seriously!


I WANT things! My anticipatory anhedonia has completely vanished.This is an absolute milestone. Even in my best windows I was too anhedonic to really want something emotionally. It is just still a very general feeling. I don’t want specific things, I just feel I want something, lol. I think I have to learn to deal with this emotion again, but I am SO happy that my reward system has awoken. :)

Sexuality has also further improved. I get a boner now by just thinking about sex. A not very strong one though, but my morning erections are extraordinary strong. I think this is all because the 5HT1A and 5HT2A receptors have upregulated. They both trigger dopamine release. SSRI are known for downregulating them which can result in anhedonia, memory problems and sexual side effects. It all makes sense now to me.


EDIT: I rose the dose to 900 mg daily yesterday, because I have adapted to the side effects, and I like the feeling the herb gives me so much that I want to try normal treatment dosage. Maybe this has accelerated the improvement of my reward system.”


“Update: I found out that the anti-anhedonic effects of SJW get elevated a lot when I drink coffee. SJW agonizes adenosine whereas caffeine antagonizes it. Two cups of green tea give me a dopmaninergic buzz that lasts several hours, most likely because of the l-theanine/caffeine combination.”

Perhaps this was mentioned, but consider taking daily dose of St. John's Wort at night (or later in the day), as it makes skin somewhat more sensitive to UV light.
 

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Why are people taking this, when RayPeat warns of serotonin syndrome caused by this?

"and with the use of drugs such as St. John's wort (which can also cause the “serotonin syndrome”) could be another effect of excess serotonin."


Endless articles of Ray Peat warn of serotonin. The goal is to lower it as much as possible.
St John's Wort can INCREASE serotonin so much, that you can get serotonin syndrome, that can apparantly take years to recover fully from.

What is the logic of wanting this on a RayPeat forum?
 

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Why are people taking this, when RayPeat warns of serotonin syndrome caused by this?

"and with the use of drugs such as St. John's wort (which can also cause the “serotonin syndrome”) could be another effect of excess serotonin."


Endless articles of Ray Peat warn of serotonin. The goal is to lower it as much as possible.
St John's Wort can INCREASE serotonin so much, that you can get serotonin syndrome, that can apparantly take years to recover fully from.

What is the logic of wanting this on a RayPeat forum?
I think we all know about that, that we want Dopamine and don't want Serotonin.

But, the truth is that this Remotiv (a different kind of SJW based on its different composition) has helped some guys and OP to come back to what we all want: be "normal" again, with ambition, emotions, sex drive, arousal,...

And other guys posted that the increase on Dopamine with this herb is way higher than the increase on Serotonin, thus increasing the Dopamine/Serotonin ratio.

That's why we are all talking in this post and discussing it.

And don't forget that each person is a different person. You can go online and find posts where guys have gone hypersexual with SSRI (which increases Serotonin for most part), so we can't really know how each pill or herb will react on each person..

Update: still waiting for it to arrive and then I will post my experience with it, here.
 

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Why are people taking this, when RayPeat warns of serotonin syndrome caused by this?

"and with the use of drugs such as St. John's wort (which can also cause the “serotonin syndrome”) could be another effect of excess serotonin."


Endless articles of Ray Peat warn of serotonin. The goal is to lower it as much as possible.
St John's Wort can INCREASE serotonin so much, that you can get serotonin syndrome, that can apparantly take years to recover fully from.

What is the logic of wanting this on a RayPeat forum?

It’s really not that much of a serotonin increaser. It’s nothing compared to SSRIs in that area. If taking SJW alone can cause serotonin syndrome, then the SSRIs would be deadly.

It’s anti depressant effects are actually down to its interactions with other neurotransmitters, and not how it interacts with serotonin. It also increases dopamine, gaba, glutamate and has a multitude of other mechanisms.
 

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Sorry for the delay. The package arrived my country January 25th but customs only released it this month and it arrived on March 7th...

I started today (March 10th), one 250mg tablet a day and see what happens and put here my observations. As other people say, the first days anxiety and other negative symptoms might get worse but it will get a lot better then. Hoping to see what happens.
 

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So, 7 days in, I have good info to share.

Well, it's working. I took one 250mg tablet a day, and I feel my emotions more "online", like food is tasting better, hot showers feel better, looking at girls is feeling like before (giving me desire to chase them) and I had sexual dreams a couple of nights. I have more desire to ejaculate, too.

About the anxiety, yeah, it is increasing, but before PSSD my anxiety was high, so I guess this is a good thing.

The only downside so far is falling sleep and maintaining sleep, it's a bit harder, but not like on SSRI where sleeping was almost inexistent...

I have to say that I am working out everyday (like 20-30 minutes), not eating any added sugar (only natural sugar from fruits and sugar from bread. No soda or whatsoever), and not taking any other medication or pill or multivitamins, only the Remotiv.

About NoFap, I am not doing it, but I am trying to restart to see if it speeds up things. I am already porn free for a month, but fapping here and there.

About the cataracts info, here is Winter, I am only taking a 250mg dose per day (not more) and I hope to stop after taking the 60 pills that came in the box.

I will report new things on day 24 (two weeks in).
 

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Sorry, went to see a football game yesterday and didn't have time to come here.

So, 15 days in, I did 6 days of NoFap too, this week, and I guess it was, somehow, cutting my progress. But after I fapped (no porn) the emotions were super there. My daydreaming is coming back strong as **** (before I could daydream anywhere and everywhere, even driving) and I feel joy just talking to people or going for a bycicle ride or just living life.

I am a lot more eyechaser with girls. On the football game my eyes were fixing a lot on hot girls, seeing their curves and getting pleasure out of it, like before. So, these Remotiv pills are working.

Anxiety is worse, can't deny it, like I said before, it's also returning to it's pre PSSD state. I guess I will only resolve the anxiety thing (linked to IBS-D) with CBD oil, that will be my next purchase.

Sleeping is still not normal, but not bad, I have more energy, too. Guess it's an effect of Dopamine increase.

Will report on day 21 (three weeks in).
 

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21 days in. This week was more of a stable one, no more improvements but no declines, either. I guess my baseline is much better and my body is just getting used to the Remotiv. Remember I am just taking 250mg a day.

Anxiety is the same, and sleeping is a bit better. Having more urge to be with girls. Doing workout everyday, still.

More details next week.
 

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Sorry, had to write here on April 7th but didn't have time.

As I was on a stable mode, I decided to up my dose to 2x250mg (500mg), taking the two pills at the same time (lunch time). Did this April 1st onward, and WOW, the improvements were immediate and AWESOME! I turned way more sexual and had those urges like before. Had to have some "me time" to unload all that energy.

Food is feeling like before, hot baths give way more pleasure, and emotions are rock on!

9 days in taking 500mg daily, I feel like I am reaching a stable mood again, but with higher baseline. Had sex last night, too, and had those pre-urges before meeting the girl. So yeah, this Remotiv is doing its thing.

Anxiety is the same.

I only have more 20 pills, now. As I am not thinking of continue taking it (as I have improved a lot and summer is coming (photosensitivity) and I want to see what happens when I stop taking Remotiv), I think I will take 500mg again tomorrow (doing 10 days on 500mg), then 8 days 250mg, then 'day yes, day no' more 5 pills, and then the last 5 pills one per 3 days, weaning from it perfectly at May 13th (it's a Friday 13th eheh).

I don't know how many people are reading this, but I hope my logs are useful to someone. And feel free to ask things, I just wanna get that hypersexual mood from before but also help people on the same situation.

Regards.
 
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@Dxmar I am reading and interested, thanks. I did actually buy some, but have forgotten to take it and it ended up in a drawer :mrgreen:
 

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Really hope the effects last for you! I had some pretty amazing results with regular st John's before (despite its effects on serotonin).

Your log after coming off will be really helpful so please keep it up. All the best!
 

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Thanks @Peater and @Jayvee, nice to read your messages.

Well, after my last message, and after getting laid, I started a new streak of noFap (will try to make it longer this time as I am weaning from Remotiv). I will do 7 days streak tomorrow night, and try to go to 2 weeks of noFap (when androgen receptors start to "heal").

I am taking 250mg daily and it seems I am stable. With noFap I am starting to get strong urges to get laid again, so I think I am in the good path to get like before SSRI. I think I am in a pre noFap state again, when I was fapping and seeing porn almost everyday. If I am in that state, well, noFap will put me again on the hypersexual state.

So, for now, I have not more to say, just to wait and see how it will go.
 

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