rainbowdrops
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First, I need to ask that people don't simply tell me I shouldn't have had surgery in the first place. Hindsight is a wonderful thing, and I was young and trusting of my surgeon/ doctors. I now have little to no confidence in my own decisions and was diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety and depression at various points due to all my hospital experiences and failed surgeries, and I aready live with soul-crushing regret. I just want to find some semblance of normality, but I feel like I am beyond broken. Please be kind.
I'm 32/F, living in the UK. I've been reading posts here for a while, but couldn't bring myself to seek much help because I felt overwhelmed by the number of issues I was dealing with, and didn't know what I should be prioritising.
I did at least manage to resolve 13 years of hypothalamic amenorrhoea by eating more, gaining some weight and trying to develop better body issues. I had been told by my OBGYN doctor that it couldn't be done, but I wouldn't take no for an answer.
I had my large bowel completely removed at 18 due to ulcerative colitis, as I had lost too much weight to start my uni degree (which also kicked off my hypothalamic amenorrhoea), and so resorted to drastic measures. Some of the remaining ileum was made into an internal "j-pouch" to act as a reservoir and stand in somewhat for the colon. I seemed OK for a while but in my 3rd year I got very weak and it turned out I had a fistula from my anastamosis site had formed and I had multiple surgeries to attempt to repair it, but most failed and I had to stop my studies. Eventually one surgery seemed to work but it meant losing more small bowel as the j-pouch was remade. I then had another fistula, this time to the vagina. I've spent the past few years going through so many surgeries to attempt to repair, but each time has been soul-destroying, as the fistula would open up again. I don't seem to have crohn's disease but it does look like a have a form of ehlers danlos, which may be contributing. It also makes my bowel very mobile, and while waiting for my "main" surgeries, due to the NHS delays and covid I have had to have a lot of operations in the interim to fix my ileostomy (which I need as long as my fistula is active), which would often retract inwards, cease to work or block, or even prolapse all the way out, like a scene from a horror film.
I thought I'd found some relief with cutting out carbs a few years ago, and I think some aspect of it did help, but I developed campylobacter poisoning one day and since then I've had the most horrendous gas no matter what I eat. After eating I have to lie on my side for the build-up of gas to come out, and it's brining me down so much, let alone the fact that the gas is so loud and I have no control over it. I had a negative hydrogen breath test on the NHS but haven't been able to find much other help. I did go on a course of rifaximin but thought I was getting numbness so it was stopped. The low carb couldn't be continued indefinitely because I was developing real fears about eating carbs and my periods were not coming back, so I knew I needed to reduce the stress on my system. Also, my fat digestion has got really bad after so many bowel resections that if I didn't have carbs I wouldn't have a source of energy. I also seem to get vaginal thrush during my cycle.
I'm at such a loss as to what I should eat. I need something to slow my bowel down, i.e. starch/soluble fibre, or else I'm constantly losing fluid and everything eaves the ileostomy too fast (except the gas, which stays building up). I know well-cooked starch with coconut oil is sometimes recommended for those without SIBO, but I don't know at all if this rules me out. I can't get testing even privately because I'm told the results would be unreliable with me having a stoma (?). I don't want to cut out carbs again because even in my low carb times the gas was very bad post-campylobacter, and I've spent years learning to like carbs again, which helped bring my periods back.
In less than a month we'll be trying for probably my last shot at reconnecting my small bowel together, and I'm terrified that all the gas I get now will force the fistula open again, bringing years and years of effort to nothing. I really don't think I have the strength to do this over and over; my life has been on hold for over a decade and I'm so tired of it.
Does anyone have any idea of what I can eat to subdue all this gas and calm my tummy down? I get the feeling there are mechanical issues but my doctors can't help me at all (I'm still waiting 18 moths and counting for a phone appointment). Low fodmap diets prohibit honey and a lot of fruits, so that confuses me even further.
Thanks
I'm 32/F, living in the UK. I've been reading posts here for a while, but couldn't bring myself to seek much help because I felt overwhelmed by the number of issues I was dealing with, and didn't know what I should be prioritising.
I did at least manage to resolve 13 years of hypothalamic amenorrhoea by eating more, gaining some weight and trying to develop better body issues. I had been told by my OBGYN doctor that it couldn't be done, but I wouldn't take no for an answer.
I had my large bowel completely removed at 18 due to ulcerative colitis, as I had lost too much weight to start my uni degree (which also kicked off my hypothalamic amenorrhoea), and so resorted to drastic measures. Some of the remaining ileum was made into an internal "j-pouch" to act as a reservoir and stand in somewhat for the colon. I seemed OK for a while but in my 3rd year I got very weak and it turned out I had a fistula from my anastamosis site had formed and I had multiple surgeries to attempt to repair it, but most failed and I had to stop my studies. Eventually one surgery seemed to work but it meant losing more small bowel as the j-pouch was remade. I then had another fistula, this time to the vagina. I've spent the past few years going through so many surgeries to attempt to repair, but each time has been soul-destroying, as the fistula would open up again. I don't seem to have crohn's disease but it does look like a have a form of ehlers danlos, which may be contributing. It also makes my bowel very mobile, and while waiting for my "main" surgeries, due to the NHS delays and covid I have had to have a lot of operations in the interim to fix my ileostomy (which I need as long as my fistula is active), which would often retract inwards, cease to work or block, or even prolapse all the way out, like a scene from a horror film.
I thought I'd found some relief with cutting out carbs a few years ago, and I think some aspect of it did help, but I developed campylobacter poisoning one day and since then I've had the most horrendous gas no matter what I eat. After eating I have to lie on my side for the build-up of gas to come out, and it's brining me down so much, let alone the fact that the gas is so loud and I have no control over it. I had a negative hydrogen breath test on the NHS but haven't been able to find much other help. I did go on a course of rifaximin but thought I was getting numbness so it was stopped. The low carb couldn't be continued indefinitely because I was developing real fears about eating carbs and my periods were not coming back, so I knew I needed to reduce the stress on my system. Also, my fat digestion has got really bad after so many bowel resections that if I didn't have carbs I wouldn't have a source of energy. I also seem to get vaginal thrush during my cycle.
I'm at such a loss as to what I should eat. I need something to slow my bowel down, i.e. starch/soluble fibre, or else I'm constantly losing fluid and everything eaves the ileostomy too fast (except the gas, which stays building up). I know well-cooked starch with coconut oil is sometimes recommended for those without SIBO, but I don't know at all if this rules me out. I can't get testing even privately because I'm told the results would be unreliable with me having a stoma (?). I don't want to cut out carbs again because even in my low carb times the gas was very bad post-campylobacter, and I've spent years learning to like carbs again, which helped bring my periods back.
In less than a month we'll be trying for probably my last shot at reconnecting my small bowel together, and I'm terrified that all the gas I get now will force the fistula open again, bringing years and years of effort to nothing. I really don't think I have the strength to do this over and over; my life has been on hold for over a decade and I'm so tired of it.
Does anyone have any idea of what I can eat to subdue all this gas and calm my tummy down? I get the feeling there are mechanical issues but my doctors can't help me at all (I'm still waiting 18 moths and counting for a phone appointment). Low fodmap diets prohibit honey and a lot of fruits, so that confuses me even further.
Thanks