Wabby1
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hello all
I am currently 8 months pregnant, and I am not doing so well.
I feel constantly distressed and extremely depressed. These high levels of hormones are making me crazy. I’m having emotional flashbacks to things that happened to me in my early childhood to early twenties that I thought I had already come to peace with. They are also visual. I am steeped in learned helplessness as well, I can’t manage to get anything done. Anxiety is very high. I feel like my husband is starting to hate me. I don’t think this pregnancy is what he expected, his mom always said her pregnancies were blissful, and mine has not been that way. There’s a lot of guilt and shame because of it.
I have a congenital hypothyroid disorder. It’s been hard for me to get t3. I am on 200mcg of t4 (the gel caps).
I haven’t been strictly eating up to ray peat standards. Acid reflux has been insane!!!! I eat frequent small meals now. Fruit and oatmeal with 1% milk, breakfast burrito with egg cheese and potato, chicken breast and broccoli with a light sauce with 1% glass of milk and sugar, fruit and 1% fat Greek yogurt drink, sandwich with turkey, low fat mozz and a little bit of avo mayo(bad I know, but in lieu of tomato...), and maybe some more milk if I am still hungry.
My sleep is awful. Can’t sleep at night, but sleep all day, which gives me anxiety and guilt because I have two dogs that need exercise and mental stimulation.
I’m awake here in Central Standard Time 2:47am and my pulse is 115bpm, and yet I am sluggish as hell.
I am truly excited to be expecting a baby and I can’t wait to be a mother. I just wish I could feel better.
I am currently 8 months pregnant, and I am not doing so well.
I feel constantly distressed and extremely depressed. These high levels of hormones are making me crazy. I’m having emotional flashbacks to things that happened to me in my early childhood to early twenties that I thought I had already come to peace with. They are also visual. I am steeped in learned helplessness as well, I can’t manage to get anything done. Anxiety is very high. I feel like my husband is starting to hate me. I don’t think this pregnancy is what he expected, his mom always said her pregnancies were blissful, and mine has not been that way. There’s a lot of guilt and shame because of it.
I have a congenital hypothyroid disorder. It’s been hard for me to get t3. I am on 200mcg of t4 (the gel caps).
I haven’t been strictly eating up to ray peat standards. Acid reflux has been insane!!!! I eat frequent small meals now. Fruit and oatmeal with 1% milk, breakfast burrito with egg cheese and potato, chicken breast and broccoli with a light sauce with 1% glass of milk and sugar, fruit and 1% fat Greek yogurt drink, sandwich with turkey, low fat mozz and a little bit of avo mayo(bad I know, but in lieu of tomato...), and maybe some more milk if I am still hungry.
My sleep is awful. Can’t sleep at night, but sleep all day, which gives me anxiety and guilt because I have two dogs that need exercise and mental stimulation.
I’m awake here in Central Standard Time 2:47am and my pulse is 115bpm, and yet I am sluggish as hell.
I am truly excited to be expecting a baby and I can’t wait to be a mother. I just wish I could feel better.