Thought I'd copy my experience report from the Metergoline long term experiences thread and add some new info here:
"I've been using it for a few weeks and had terrific results mood wise but I'm finding the "tolerance" period to be pretty serious with lethargy and exhaustion any time I try to work up a higher dose. So currently I'm doing 1 drop a day for a week or so then a week off.
I feel like this really destroys the fear-dominant responses -helplessness, fear- that serotonin promotes, and breaks down walls that have stopped me from really reckoning with bad experiences of the past and unsatisfactory aspects of the present. I'm more outspoken and less fearful of criticism, morewilling to put myself out their and be emotionally vulnerable and honest, even and especially with myself in my own thoughts. Using higher doses reminds me a bit of using MDMA in that I'm not afraid of my own feelings or emotions or those of others. I could see thisbeing a life changing drug for those struggling with learned helplessness.
That all said, it remaining to be seen what the long term effects will be."
Since writing this I've changed to 1-4 drops spread out between the morning and evening. Since the initial period of adjustment I can now take Metergoline in the evening without it affecting my sleep or in the morning without it making me lethargic (at these doses). Still working very well for anxiety and depression and overall well-being. I feel less isolated and more capable of making emotional connections with others, both people I know well and new people. I've been using some pansterone (only 2-4 drops a day topically, sometimes less) too and this combo seems to be pretty outstanding for social anxiety.
At this point I'd like to stay the course but am a little worried about DAWS, even though my doses are quite low. I'm trying to decide if I should take a week or two off but I'm kind of worried about the adjustment period again.
"I've been using it for a few weeks and had terrific results mood wise but I'm finding the "tolerance" period to be pretty serious with lethargy and exhaustion any time I try to work up a higher dose. So currently I'm doing 1 drop a day for a week or so then a week off.
I feel like this really destroys the fear-dominant responses -helplessness, fear- that serotonin promotes, and breaks down walls that have stopped me from really reckoning with bad experiences of the past and unsatisfactory aspects of the present. I'm more outspoken and less fearful of criticism, morewilling to put myself out their and be emotionally vulnerable and honest, even and especially with myself in my own thoughts. Using higher doses reminds me a bit of using MDMA in that I'm not afraid of my own feelings or emotions or those of others. I could see thisbeing a life changing drug for those struggling with learned helplessness.
That all said, it remaining to be seen what the long term effects will be."
Since writing this I've changed to 1-4 drops spread out between the morning and evening. Since the initial period of adjustment I can now take Metergoline in the evening without it affecting my sleep or in the morning without it making me lethargic (at these doses). Still working very well for anxiety and depression and overall well-being. I feel less isolated and more capable of making emotional connections with others, both people I know well and new people. I've been using some pansterone (only 2-4 drops a day topically, sometimes less) too and this combo seems to be pretty outstanding for social anxiety.
At this point I'd like to stay the course but am a little worried about DAWS, even though my doses are quite low. I'm trying to decide if I should take a week or two off but I'm kind of worried about the adjustment period again.
