JCastro
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- Jun 8, 2016
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I tried. Like many of you I started with paleo, exercise, fish oil, pop health trash etc., steadily got worse. Discovered Ray and thought I had unlocked the secret.
I had a lot of vigilance. For years. I lost my teens trying to cure my symptoms. Alienation, brain fog, social anxiety, "shin splints", couldn't keep up with anyone. I recognized learned helplessness as a possible ending if I failed. Lost all my interests, lost contact with my loved ones, all I cared about was getting better, and then my life would start.
Whole life undereating. That's it! Start eating a lot, 3000 cal., manic, reactive to everything. Increased sugar, more yeast. Protein, fatigue. Histamine reaction with red ears and face to god knows what. Throwing water on my face releases histamine, haha...
Pressure in brain. Burning, dry eyes. Dry hair, dandruff. Dry skin. Cold hands and feet. Sitting pulse 120. Walking, 130-140. Dysautonomia. Odd sensations, tingling, electric. Formification. Borderline or bipolar. Chronically derealized. Addiction. No appetite, ever. Waking up tired, starting to see things. High adrenaline. Hypersensitive to meds. Vestibular problems. Noise hurting ears, light hurting eyes. Tremor. Air hunger. IBS, GERD. Tinnitus. Visual static. Lower back pain. Purples toes, blood pooling? Bladder doesn't work well. Takes me minutes to start peeing. Urologist and chiro found nothing. No one ever found anything anywhere. Well, high DHEA, high prolactin, demyelinating brain lesion, digestive inflammation, "but not enough for a diagnosis". People can postulate all day about what might be wrong with me, but nothing has ever worked so it's all useless. This is like the pivotal moment where John Locke cries out in despair and then sees the light in the hatch except that's a TV show.
I'm 19 with a drooping face, dark circles and bags under eyes. Deep lines on cheeks, around nose and mouth. Hair is like a Brillo pad, coarse, zig-zaggy, scalp stopped producing oils long ago.
Couldn't integrate into college well, never felt right, always knew deep down I'm different and there's something wrong, something no one can help me with.
Oh but can pregnenolone lift my face like Ray Peat? Maybe it will heal my brain, energize me! Take it, intense stress reaction. Read horror stories online of permanent damage. Ok guess not. Read haidut saying that's just detox, well faith in internet personas never got me anywhere.
Ray tells me nutrition won't work for me if my TSH is 3.7. Take crumb of thyroid, intense stress reaction. Ok. Ask him further advice, ignored.
Dropped out of work, dropped out of school, it was a "break" at first but I don't see anything in front of me. Ignoring everyone who cares about me. A few days ago I stopped speaking, started staring for long periods of time. Simple movements are difficult. Inertia. People talk to me and I can't pay attention. I broke my grandma's heart because I can't smile, emote, or converse anymore. Maybe I have become autistic. Maybe I'll go schizophrenic. I have an apt. today but I can't seem to move. I'll stay here instead.
Peat stuff I tried: lisuride, mirtazapine, tianeptine, thyroid, preg., progesterone, bag breathing, red light, carrot salad, cascara, stimulating activities, optimism, abundance, niacinamide, aspirin, baking soda, lysine, theanine, taurine, selenium, vitamin D, E, A, high calories, minerals, low dose naltrexone, probably more I can't remember.
I tried more interventions than most ever do in their lifetime..paleo, GAPS, mercury chelation, raw fruit diet, water fasting, anti-parasite, coffee enema, meditation, self-help, philosophy, therapy, hours a day of self-cognitive therapy, exercise, hiking, cold showers, sun-bathing, so many ******* supplements, herbs, chemicals. Spent over $5000 this year. Total, maybe double that. My money's gone. I never got a diagnosis. I'm a stressed hypochondriac. People want to cheer me up but the damage is done. I got a botched kundalini awakening.
Caffeine used to pump me up, now it just makes me mad. Yes, with sugar & protein. Amphetamine used to pump me up, now it just releases histamine.
I think I'm being put on an antipsychotic soon and maybe an SNRI. I don't have a particular reason for posting this because I don't expect an answer anymore. I've talked to the experts, talked to Ray Peat, talked to other scientists, specialists, looked deep inside myself, looked to a creator, and it remains unchanged. Some people, especially with my cluster of symptoms, never get better. There isn't a market for orphan illnesses like this. So, in an environment where my suffering is endless and unanswered, the body forces me to stop because it simply can't deal anymore.
I hate to fill this place with negativity but it's out of my hands now.
I had a lot of vigilance. For years. I lost my teens trying to cure my symptoms. Alienation, brain fog, social anxiety, "shin splints", couldn't keep up with anyone. I recognized learned helplessness as a possible ending if I failed. Lost all my interests, lost contact with my loved ones, all I cared about was getting better, and then my life would start.
Whole life undereating. That's it! Start eating a lot, 3000 cal., manic, reactive to everything. Increased sugar, more yeast. Protein, fatigue. Histamine reaction with red ears and face to god knows what. Throwing water on my face releases histamine, haha...
Pressure in brain. Burning, dry eyes. Dry hair, dandruff. Dry skin. Cold hands and feet. Sitting pulse 120. Walking, 130-140. Dysautonomia. Odd sensations, tingling, electric. Formification. Borderline or bipolar. Chronically derealized. Addiction. No appetite, ever. Waking up tired, starting to see things. High adrenaline. Hypersensitive to meds. Vestibular problems. Noise hurting ears, light hurting eyes. Tremor. Air hunger. IBS, GERD. Tinnitus. Visual static. Lower back pain. Purples toes, blood pooling? Bladder doesn't work well. Takes me minutes to start peeing. Urologist and chiro found nothing. No one ever found anything anywhere. Well, high DHEA, high prolactin, demyelinating brain lesion, digestive inflammation, "but not enough for a diagnosis". People can postulate all day about what might be wrong with me, but nothing has ever worked so it's all useless. This is like the pivotal moment where John Locke cries out in despair and then sees the light in the hatch except that's a TV show.
I'm 19 with a drooping face, dark circles and bags under eyes. Deep lines on cheeks, around nose and mouth. Hair is like a Brillo pad, coarse, zig-zaggy, scalp stopped producing oils long ago.
Couldn't integrate into college well, never felt right, always knew deep down I'm different and there's something wrong, something no one can help me with.
Oh but can pregnenolone lift my face like Ray Peat? Maybe it will heal my brain, energize me! Take it, intense stress reaction. Read horror stories online of permanent damage. Ok guess not. Read haidut saying that's just detox, well faith in internet personas never got me anywhere.
Ray tells me nutrition won't work for me if my TSH is 3.7. Take crumb of thyroid, intense stress reaction. Ok. Ask him further advice, ignored.
Dropped out of work, dropped out of school, it was a "break" at first but I don't see anything in front of me. Ignoring everyone who cares about me. A few days ago I stopped speaking, started staring for long periods of time. Simple movements are difficult. Inertia. People talk to me and I can't pay attention. I broke my grandma's heart because I can't smile, emote, or converse anymore. Maybe I have become autistic. Maybe I'll go schizophrenic. I have an apt. today but I can't seem to move. I'll stay here instead.
Peat stuff I tried: lisuride, mirtazapine, tianeptine, thyroid, preg., progesterone, bag breathing, red light, carrot salad, cascara, stimulating activities, optimism, abundance, niacinamide, aspirin, baking soda, lysine, theanine, taurine, selenium, vitamin D, E, A, high calories, minerals, low dose naltrexone, probably more I can't remember.
I tried more interventions than most ever do in their lifetime..paleo, GAPS, mercury chelation, raw fruit diet, water fasting, anti-parasite, coffee enema, meditation, self-help, philosophy, therapy, hours a day of self-cognitive therapy, exercise, hiking, cold showers, sun-bathing, so many ******* supplements, herbs, chemicals. Spent over $5000 this year. Total, maybe double that. My money's gone. I never got a diagnosis. I'm a stressed hypochondriac. People want to cheer me up but the damage is done. I got a botched kundalini awakening.
Caffeine used to pump me up, now it just makes me mad. Yes, with sugar & protein. Amphetamine used to pump me up, now it just releases histamine.
I think I'm being put on an antipsychotic soon and maybe an SNRI. I don't have a particular reason for posting this because I don't expect an answer anymore. I've talked to the experts, talked to Ray Peat, talked to other scientists, specialists, looked deep inside myself, looked to a creator, and it remains unchanged. Some people, especially with my cluster of symptoms, never get better. There isn't a market for orphan illnesses like this. So, in an environment where my suffering is endless and unanswered, the body forces me to stop because it simply can't deal anymore.
I hate to fill this place with negativity but it's out of my hands now.
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