Indeed sounds like it is HSV.
Sorry to hear about the situation. Hang in there buddy!
Here are some questions/thoughts.
-Why didn't you wear condom for oral sex?(many sex workers do condom only for any orifice).
-What sti/std research did you do before your sexual experience?
-Many porn companies require full std/sti blood testing every 2 weeks so they can work. IIRC HSV is one of the common ones.
You can contact the companies/actors/actresses/sex workers etc and ask about safety, health, viral, bacteria, any questions to them to get an idea.
Or google info and find interviews. You could try porn out. Though some porn genres people are battling more than just hsv.
Having no consequences after sex is one of porn's biggest myths/fantasies. Pleasure only.
Having to do blood testing every 2 weeks for some companies prove this. Having to be on birth control or other medications/recreational substances for the job.
-There are some hsv/sti dating sites IIRC.
-Get full std panel testing for future sex partner and yourself. Though I think if herpes is dormant it cannot come up as positive, not 100% sure on this.
-Naltrexone (low dose) is said to help. Along with good sleep, nutrition, hormone status.
-Some people who have done xxx for decades are still alive and look pretty good for their age.
-There are good quality sex toys on the market such as life size dolls which for the "feel" is pretty life like. Not common for men to use toy's in films, but more common for women to use toys (dildo's/vibrators seem to be most common) etc. Nothing wrong with toys.
Because wearing condoms for oral sex its fun at all lol, it's safe and responsible but definitely not fun. You just cant feel anything.
Thanks for the info man I appreciate it..
I'm getting my blood test tomorrow so I'll find out soon enough what it is exactly