MetabolicTrash
Member
It seems you can't get away from dog-eat-dog world even on an obscure internet forum.
Basically I've noticed that here (and most other places) I'm always low status, importance, and within a group with others where they (the members) are always ahead in some way. If I try to speed up I am just the bumbling one who needs their hand held -- if I try to lead I am off-target and re-assessed to be either ignored or unconfidently followed.
In this forum even you have the upper rank, high status posters who everyone listens to more and likes, whereas I feel like I'm among some here in the dumb and ugly section. I don't even need to include anyone's names here since I'm very sure most in the "upper" positions know who they are -- and most in the positions under them know which group of like 10-30 members I'm speaking of.
This is not an attack -- it's merely an observation although I won't lie and say I've never heavily disagreed or disliked some ways members at times have expressed themselves (through text at least).
The point is we know people want to pretend these things don't exist or matter (whether in this forum or not) but denying placements in life, patterns and the obvious when dug deep enough would be like denying many of the things we know the "normie" or mainstream people do.
For example, a rich (or popular/well-liked) person will say, "Work hard so people like you." However, I feel I've worked pretty hard my whole life and almost no people like me much, even in a fictional-esque internet world while others are ignored, low-post, greyed out avatars who never get mentioned or talked to. Yeah it sounds stupid, but behind these profiles are people -- and people will be people, more or less, whether they are in front of you or behind a computer, showing the "natural" order of status, fondness and selectable nature of others.
Ultimately you can't seem to escape feeling inadequate, whether online or in real life, suggesting the problem is not merely an illusion or false belief but evident in seeing how people operate. I've always noticed that people either take lead, or walk away and let you pretend you're valid -- that's always the case with me.
I think to myself that maybe it's because I actually am stupid, but that's not entirely true -- people won't like you necessarily just because you are smart anyways. Yeah, it's obviously jealousy and it sounds ridiculous, but the fact of the matter is that reality is mimicked whether it's in front of a computer with people or in front of people/first-hand -- you always feel shortchanged. I have grown to the liking that if something continues to keep feeling true to you, on some level it must be. This post accomplishes nothing really -- it is a clear indication of the physiological state as of now. It's also a shame that this is behind a computer -- imagine the intensity if this was all face-to-face where some good punches can be thrown, sex to be had, and serotonin to continue rising.
And yes, this does seem to be a reach (I am admitting to jealousy, inadequacy and being a failure so hopefully someone else who reads this can be honest too) but I think I am the only one here (or few of) who will bring these subjects to light. I know how you can criss-cross this and that with metabolic function, health, whatever, but if one feels like a lesser, under-appreciated, lower valued person/man/woman/etc. then no amount of metabolic function directly helps that (at least that I know of). I've had my highs and lows, but deeply observed truths that hit home are hard to flip-flop on when it comes to feeling good or bad. For example, high metabolism doesn't make me less poor -- or hasn't yet at least. A good metabolism doesn't make people like me if the reasons for doing so are not necessarily internal. People judge books by covers, not by how well the writing can influence you alone/ignoring the overall impression of the book wholly. You can have a high thyroid function but unless you like being poor, miserable and lonely then I can't imagine how you can maximize life circumstances by maximizing health, otherwise people here would not stay stuck in constant swings of poor health -> decent health -> good health -> poor health so swiftly. I guess when some know their problems and have no way of fixing them it is a full circle sort of issue where you can't let yourself become healthy because it isn't optimal or necessary to be. Does someone running from a lion need a high thyroid? Does giving someone T3 when a lion is chasing after them help increase their chances of survival? Clearly some people are going to keep being in denial and some more open to the unfair truths evident everywhere, but I am not one who will pretend that life can simply be good for anyone just because they want it to be, regardless of physiological state.
Hell I know people who do nothing objectively meaningful & are well-liked, so being socially successful, liked, or valued isn't some objective measure of anything you do which seems that being liked is more a matter of pieces falling in place. It seems unjust to have the position of power and influence when you did nothing differently to deserve it than another, given the available tools, resources and circumstances you were born in to. I don't know -- maybe if I was born a few kilometers north I'd be selling and advertising underground steroids, metabolites and so on to hamsters on the internet? Maybe if I was born with helicopter parents I'd be making punny references to vitamins by adding relevant, humorous identifiers before or after each and every one? Lastly, maybe if I had some more chemical soup in the womb I'd be a tall, good looking guy sleeping with all of my female friends and liked merely for existing rather than for having to work your **** off for nearly nothing? Or maybe if I was born with slightly bigger chest and different anatomical structure south I'd be collecting simp coins on Twitch because boobs and woman. But alas you are born in the unfavorable position of struggle, so the most important thing to do regarding changing that is to take T3 and listen to people with 1,000+ post count who make hilarious references to vitamins -- that's it basically (maybe it is?) in order to achieve enlightenment. Or maybe some actual light is likely needed -- just don't shine it at some low count posters' faces as we all aren't that attractive/rich/liked. But I'll hand it to you -- you guys have mostly all been good, but no need to deny the truth anymore -- it's time to realize where you all stand.
Basically I've noticed that here (and most other places) I'm always low status, importance, and within a group with others where they (the members) are always ahead in some way. If I try to speed up I am just the bumbling one who needs their hand held -- if I try to lead I am off-target and re-assessed to be either ignored or unconfidently followed.
In this forum even you have the upper rank, high status posters who everyone listens to more and likes, whereas I feel like I'm among some here in the dumb and ugly section. I don't even need to include anyone's names here since I'm very sure most in the "upper" positions know who they are -- and most in the positions under them know which group of like 10-30 members I'm speaking of.
This is not an attack -- it's merely an observation although I won't lie and say I've never heavily disagreed or disliked some ways members at times have expressed themselves (through text at least).
The point is we know people want to pretend these things don't exist or matter (whether in this forum or not) but denying placements in life, patterns and the obvious when dug deep enough would be like denying many of the things we know the "normie" or mainstream people do.
For example, a rich (or popular/well-liked) person will say, "Work hard so people like you." However, I feel I've worked pretty hard my whole life and almost no people like me much, even in a fictional-esque internet world while others are ignored, low-post, greyed out avatars who never get mentioned or talked to. Yeah it sounds stupid, but behind these profiles are people -- and people will be people, more or less, whether they are in front of you or behind a computer, showing the "natural" order of status, fondness and selectable nature of others.
Ultimately you can't seem to escape feeling inadequate, whether online or in real life, suggesting the problem is not merely an illusion or false belief but evident in seeing how people operate. I've always noticed that people either take lead, or walk away and let you pretend you're valid -- that's always the case with me.
I think to myself that maybe it's because I actually am stupid, but that's not entirely true -- people won't like you necessarily just because you are smart anyways. Yeah, it's obviously jealousy and it sounds ridiculous, but the fact of the matter is that reality is mimicked whether it's in front of a computer with people or in front of people/first-hand -- you always feel shortchanged. I have grown to the liking that if something continues to keep feeling true to you, on some level it must be. This post accomplishes nothing really -- it is a clear indication of the physiological state as of now. It's also a shame that this is behind a computer -- imagine the intensity if this was all face-to-face where some good punches can be thrown, sex to be had, and serotonin to continue rising.
And yes, this does seem to be a reach (I am admitting to jealousy, inadequacy and being a failure so hopefully someone else who reads this can be honest too) but I think I am the only one here (or few of) who will bring these subjects to light. I know how you can criss-cross this and that with metabolic function, health, whatever, but if one feels like a lesser, under-appreciated, lower valued person/man/woman/etc. then no amount of metabolic function directly helps that (at least that I know of). I've had my highs and lows, but deeply observed truths that hit home are hard to flip-flop on when it comes to feeling good or bad. For example, high metabolism doesn't make me less poor -- or hasn't yet at least. A good metabolism doesn't make people like me if the reasons for doing so are not necessarily internal. People judge books by covers, not by how well the writing can influence you alone/ignoring the overall impression of the book wholly. You can have a high thyroid function but unless you like being poor, miserable and lonely then I can't imagine how you can maximize life circumstances by maximizing health, otherwise people here would not stay stuck in constant swings of poor health -> decent health -> good health -> poor health so swiftly. I guess when some know their problems and have no way of fixing them it is a full circle sort of issue where you can't let yourself become healthy because it isn't optimal or necessary to be. Does someone running from a lion need a high thyroid? Does giving someone T3 when a lion is chasing after them help increase their chances of survival? Clearly some people are going to keep being in denial and some more open to the unfair truths evident everywhere, but I am not one who will pretend that life can simply be good for anyone just because they want it to be, regardless of physiological state.
Hell I know people who do nothing objectively meaningful & are well-liked, so being socially successful, liked, or valued isn't some objective measure of anything you do which seems that being liked is more a matter of pieces falling in place. It seems unjust to have the position of power and influence when you did nothing differently to deserve it than another, given the available tools, resources and circumstances you were born in to. I don't know -- maybe if I was born a few kilometers north I'd be selling and advertising underground steroids, metabolites and so on to hamsters on the internet? Maybe if I was born with helicopter parents I'd be making punny references to vitamins by adding relevant, humorous identifiers before or after each and every one? Lastly, maybe if I had some more chemical soup in the womb I'd be a tall, good looking guy sleeping with all of my female friends and liked merely for existing rather than for having to work your **** off for nearly nothing? Or maybe if I was born with slightly bigger chest and different anatomical structure south I'd be collecting simp coins on Twitch because boobs and woman. But alas you are born in the unfavorable position of struggle, so the most important thing to do regarding changing that is to take T3 and listen to people with 1,000+ post count who make hilarious references to vitamins -- that's it basically (maybe it is?) in order to achieve enlightenment. Or maybe some actual light is likely needed -- just don't shine it at some low count posters' faces as we all aren't that attractive/rich/liked. But I'll hand it to you -- you guys have mostly all been good, but no need to deny the truth anymore -- it's time to realize where you all stand.
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