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This is one of these issues that's been plaguing me for 2-3 years now. Actually, it's been plaguing me since I started working. I figure that's at least part of the issue - it's subconscious, or psychosomatic, whatever. Why do I think? Because it's almost exclusively an issue when I have to go to work. Over the weekends, I sleep reasonably good. When I work from home and can wake up at like 7:30 AM, I sleep fine. But when I have to get up at 5:30 AM knowing I have to catch a train or drive 38 miles to the office and spend all day among people, for some reason, I can't sleep properly.
Basically what happens is, I will go to bed around 10-10:30 PM, planning to get up around 5:30 . But what usually happens is I wake up earlier than that, sometimes much earlier, usually because I have to go urinate. And when this happens I am strangely awake, like my brain is just overactive. After I come back from the bathroom, I lie in bed just turning around and my mind is buzzing and racing in every direction, and usually after 30-40 minutes of trying to fall back asleep I give up. Then I have to spend the day running on 5-6 hours of sleep, and unless I get at least 7, I feel like ***t - my coordination is garbage, my brain is foggy and doesn't work, I make less testosterone and feel like a *****, I'm anxious around people and everything that goes with that.
It's now gotten to the point where the very act of going to sleep every night is becoming a stressor in itself because I know I will wake up during the night which will lead to me lacking sleep which will lead to me feeling garbage the next day, etc. I've tried shutting down all windows, taping over all LED's and light sources, using f.lux etc. And I FALL asleep just fine, but I can't for the life of me stay asleep for more than 4-5 hours without waking up (and I can't quite figure out if it's the need to urinate that wakes me up or if I wake up for other reasons). Over the weekend this often happens as well but I have a much easier time falling back asleep after the fact.
I tried drinking less as well and there doesn't seem to be much correlation with how much I drink - I don't overload on liquids and just drink to thirst for the most part. I seem to remember as a teenager, most nights I'd sleep fine and never wake up until morning, but on the occasion that I did, I'd fall back asleep fine. And that's almost the same now when I work from home. So why can I not do this on any days when I have some kind of responsibility to leave the house? There's nothing particularly stressful about my work either, it's relatively stress-free most of the time, so I don't know why it would disrupt my sleep. Just can't handle running around like a zombie anymore.
P.S. I feel like at least part of the issue is that I go to bed with this forced notion of 'I have to wake up at XYZ time, so I have to go to bed now to get enough sleep' whereas when I work from home I can wake up later due to no travel and I never stay in bed past 8 anyway so I know I can't be late, and I guess this lack of pressure and rigidness then enables me to sleep soundly? I don't know.
Basically what happens is, I will go to bed around 10-10:30 PM, planning to get up around 5:30 . But what usually happens is I wake up earlier than that, sometimes much earlier, usually because I have to go urinate. And when this happens I am strangely awake, like my brain is just overactive. After I come back from the bathroom, I lie in bed just turning around and my mind is buzzing and racing in every direction, and usually after 30-40 minutes of trying to fall back asleep I give up. Then I have to spend the day running on 5-6 hours of sleep, and unless I get at least 7, I feel like ***t - my coordination is garbage, my brain is foggy and doesn't work, I make less testosterone and feel like a *****, I'm anxious around people and everything that goes with that.
It's now gotten to the point where the very act of going to sleep every night is becoming a stressor in itself because I know I will wake up during the night which will lead to me lacking sleep which will lead to me feeling garbage the next day, etc. I've tried shutting down all windows, taping over all LED's and light sources, using f.lux etc. And I FALL asleep just fine, but I can't for the life of me stay asleep for more than 4-5 hours without waking up (and I can't quite figure out if it's the need to urinate that wakes me up or if I wake up for other reasons). Over the weekend this often happens as well but I have a much easier time falling back asleep after the fact.
I tried drinking less as well and there doesn't seem to be much correlation with how much I drink - I don't overload on liquids and just drink to thirst for the most part. I seem to remember as a teenager, most nights I'd sleep fine and never wake up until morning, but on the occasion that I did, I'd fall back asleep fine. And that's almost the same now when I work from home. So why can I not do this on any days when I have some kind of responsibility to leave the house? There's nothing particularly stressful about my work either, it's relatively stress-free most of the time, so I don't know why it would disrupt my sleep. Just can't handle running around like a zombie anymore.
P.S. I feel like at least part of the issue is that I go to bed with this forced notion of 'I have to wake up at XYZ time, so I have to go to bed now to get enough sleep' whereas when I work from home I can wake up later due to no travel and I never stay in bed past 8 anyway so I know I can't be late, and I guess this lack of pressure and rigidness then enables me to sleep soundly? I don't know.
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