I’m thinking about checking myself into a mental clinic, is that a bad idea? I really don’t know what to do, I was having thoughts earlier that really scare and disturb me that I never had before. The only thing is that I’m afraid they’re going to force me to take meds and that they will make me really lose it or something. Also, my distant family members who I really like and enjoy being around cane over today and I tried talking with them and laughing like we normally do and I just couldn’t. Everything was numb and I couldn’t remember things and I couldn’t act like myself. I want to just die. This feels worse than death. It’s like overnight I’ve turned into a whole new person and I can’t feel anything except pain, frustration, and numbness. The ringing in my ears has yet to stop and I’m just feeling so hopeless.Yep
the memory issue is really frustrating! it will subside massively. It’s definitely worth writing things down. Things that are helpful, things that are not helpful etc... my life has been post it notes everywhere since PFS and only now after being on the ‘right path’ am I starting to need them less. As JoeKool alluded to in an earlier post... it’s like being chased by a lion, the bodies stress response doesn’t prioritise memory, sexual function etc and only once you leave a stressed state do they things start to come back. You need to take a weird ****88 up comfort in Knowing your symptoms are normal (to someone who has gone through what we have)... Just do everything you can to make it as comfortable and relaxed as you can