Hi all,
Apologies for this self indulgent rant--so appropriate considering the Holidays ha. I am sitting on the couch sulking at my aunt's house watching my mother and she make a family dinner and I am completely detached and miserable. Resentful of having to be around people when I am feeling so low, I'd really rather be by myself at home so I didn't have to feel bad for feeling bad about my hair thinning. And no one understands how debilitating this is. I thought at one point I had turned a corner with it but with more of my scalp showing than ever I am once again hyperfocused on it and incredibly sad. I do not know how, as a young woman, to ever be okay with what's happening and am so fearful of the day that it gets so bad I can't fake it anymore. I feel like I sound so vain but unless you've been through it, it's hard to understand. It makes me feel so helpless, I've devoted so much time to researching and experimenting, it's hard to stay hopeful when there havent been any gains. I hate looking at myself, I hate getting ready everyday, it's a constant reminder. I can't put it out of sight out of mind. I am just having a really down day. I'm sorry again but am thankful to have a place to vent. This forum is such a comfort to me and I am grateful.
Apologies for this self indulgent rant--so appropriate considering the Holidays ha. I am sitting on the couch sulking at my aunt's house watching my mother and she make a family dinner and I am completely detached and miserable. Resentful of having to be around people when I am feeling so low, I'd really rather be by myself at home so I didn't have to feel bad for feeling bad about my hair thinning. And no one understands how debilitating this is. I thought at one point I had turned a corner with it but with more of my scalp showing than ever I am once again hyperfocused on it and incredibly sad. I do not know how, as a young woman, to ever be okay with what's happening and am so fearful of the day that it gets so bad I can't fake it anymore. I feel like I sound so vain but unless you've been through it, it's hard to understand. It makes me feel so helpless, I've devoted so much time to researching and experimenting, it's hard to stay hopeful when there havent been any gains. I hate looking at myself, I hate getting ready everyday, it's a constant reminder. I can't put it out of sight out of mind. I am just having a really down day. I'm sorry again but am thankful to have a place to vent. This forum is such a comfort to me and I am grateful.