Darius Jenkins
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- Jan 21, 2019
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Hello im an 18 year old male and i was diagnosed with major depressive disorder. I take welbutrin 150 mg and abilify 10 mg and vistaril 25 mg. October of last year i had testicular surgery for varicocele and torsion. The week after the surgery i was depressed and feeling hopeless. I wanted to end it all and it was just a very difficult time for me. A few weeks after the surgery i did something horrible to my testicles. I squeezed them hard. I didnt bust them or break them. I did this on two occasions. My scrotum was red from irritation. When i squeezed them the second time, my doctor said my testicles were fine. I think their fine as well, but i have anxiety about my sexual function. If my genitals get hit, my anxiety goes up and i get depressed. So everyday im careful and cautious of what im doing. Im even afraid to touch my penis. I have fears of it not working again or of it falling off. I do have a bad porn addiction which makes me depressed after i climax.
Im trying to get out of my depression. My diet isn't that good. I eat snacks all day and sometimes fast food and what my mother cooks for me. I started discovering the ray peat diet last year. The first time i tried it, it was working for me. I wasnt even on my antidepressants. Then one day i started watching porn again and i got depressed and started eating bad food again. I had to get on the antidepressants again. Now, im starting the diet again in the hopes that it cures my depression. I have social anxiety and i dont have any friends because of it. I stay in the house half of the day, then my mom might take me somewhere. Thats all i really do.
Im trying to get out of my depression. My diet isn't that good. I eat snacks all day and sometimes fast food and what my mother cooks for me. I started discovering the ray peat diet last year. The first time i tried it, it was working for me. I wasnt even on my antidepressants. Then one day i started watching porn again and i got depressed and started eating bad food again. I had to get on the antidepressants again. Now, im starting the diet again in the hopes that it cures my depression. I have social anxiety and i dont have any friends because of it. I stay in the house half of the day, then my mom might take me somewhere. Thats all i really do.