jnklheimer
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- Jan 9, 2021
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not sure what this is. since getting much healthier, i absolutely refuse to take sh*t from anyone anymore. It slowly got to this point where I would become more and more incredulous over someone going on a narcissistic rant at me, trying to belittle, trying to mock me. This is causing some issues because the people I don't take ***t from anymore don't like it.
There is one person in particular who I've asked over and over again to change their attitude towards me. They often get angry and lose their cool and say rude things to me, and then never really apologize. They are absolutely flippant about their attitude. Lately, I dropped totally the caring and nice attitude and flipped it on them. I began making nasty comments to them about their weight and their appearance, and the look of absolute shock on this persons' face was hilarious. It is amazing to see because they will flippantly make similar comments to me but the moment I start saying similar stuff to them they act so surprised.
But what the problem is, is I don't want to be rude or nasty. It is absolutely a defence mechanism. It is just the simplest path to conserve my energy without developing intense mindfulness, which I am working on.
There is one person in particular who I've asked over and over again to change their attitude towards me. They often get angry and lose their cool and say rude things to me, and then never really apologize. They are absolutely flippant about their attitude. Lately, I dropped totally the caring and nice attitude and flipped it on them. I began making nasty comments to them about their weight and their appearance, and the look of absolute shock on this persons' face was hilarious. It is amazing to see because they will flippantly make similar comments to me but the moment I start saying similar stuff to them they act so surprised.
But what the problem is, is I don't want to be rude or nasty. It is absolutely a defence mechanism. It is just the simplest path to conserve my energy without developing intense mindfulness, which I am working on.