loess
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- Sep 22, 2013
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I started Peating four days ago and have noticed an incredibly profound and rapidly improving rise out of a tunnel of depression, fatigue, and fear that has crippled me for over two months. I will maybe elaborate on my history and the backstory that caused me to tank into this bout of depression at some point, but for now I'll just log my little prism of reality that goes on each day so that I can have a record of my early days of Peat.
Yesterday I had a carrot salad in the morning and around 1800 calories of OJ, milk, and gelatin during the day. Very sedentary as usual these days, spending the day reading on the laptop and getting up from the bed only to use the bathroom, visit the kitchen, etc. Tomorrow I will make myself go for a short gentle walk outside as it's no good to be indoors all day. I'm guessing that I am way overdue for some liver or some shellfish because at around 5pm, thoughts of chocolate took ahold of me and would not let go until I gave them what they wanted, which ended up being milk and a whole bar (100g) of Green & Black 85% dark chocolate. Theobromine is a pretty darn potent alkaloid so I usually like to eat small amounts but I really felt like I was craving the zinc and minerals, so I just went with it and shazam, no more choco bar. Around an hour later I felt the most euphoric sense of calm and hopefulness that I have experienced during this bout of darkness. I felt very creative and uplifted. That feeling kind of gently bloomed over the next couple of hours, it was nice and balanced. I wrote in my journal late into the night and started to feel the need for some sugar around 2 am so I made myself a bit of gelatin and some salted OJ (about 1 tsp of salt) and fell asleep soon thereafter, though I'm wondering if I overshot on protein for the day because I could really feel some digestive discomfort going on with the gelatin.
While I was asleep I had a nightmare where a childhood friend was in a courtroom and pointed a gun at me. I woke up just before he was going to pull the trigger. Very strange, probably chocolate-induced in some way, or maybe too much salt at once? One of my nostrils was plugged up which doesn't usually happen unless I am dehydrated. After a little while I was feeling like I needed some sugar to calm down so I went down and drank some OJ and milk which made me feel better, but today I have noticed that I've been dealing with more mucus than normal in my sinus and throat.
Yesterday I had a carrot salad in the morning and around 1800 calories of OJ, milk, and gelatin during the day. Very sedentary as usual these days, spending the day reading on the laptop and getting up from the bed only to use the bathroom, visit the kitchen, etc. Tomorrow I will make myself go for a short gentle walk outside as it's no good to be indoors all day. I'm guessing that I am way overdue for some liver or some shellfish because at around 5pm, thoughts of chocolate took ahold of me and would not let go until I gave them what they wanted, which ended up being milk and a whole bar (100g) of Green & Black 85% dark chocolate. Theobromine is a pretty darn potent alkaloid so I usually like to eat small amounts but I really felt like I was craving the zinc and minerals, so I just went with it and shazam, no more choco bar. Around an hour later I felt the most euphoric sense of calm and hopefulness that I have experienced during this bout of darkness. I felt very creative and uplifted. That feeling kind of gently bloomed over the next couple of hours, it was nice and balanced. I wrote in my journal late into the night and started to feel the need for some sugar around 2 am so I made myself a bit of gelatin and some salted OJ (about 1 tsp of salt) and fell asleep soon thereafter, though I'm wondering if I overshot on protein for the day because I could really feel some digestive discomfort going on with the gelatin.
While I was asleep I had a nightmare where a childhood friend was in a courtroom and pointed a gun at me. I woke up just before he was going to pull the trigger. Very strange, probably chocolate-induced in some way, or maybe too much salt at once? One of my nostrils was plugged up which doesn't usually happen unless I am dehydrated. After a little while I was feeling like I needed some sugar to calm down so I went down and drank some OJ and milk which made me feel better, but today I have noticed that I've been dealing with more mucus than normal in my sinus and throat.