38 Male UK. Tired Of Being Like The Walking Dead

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  1. Kunstruct

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    What dosage and how many times per day of each?
    Lisuride half life is very short, 2-3 hours. Metergoline much better at around 10 hours.
     
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    proviron monotherapy made absolutely no difference to me. May of made me worse. I was bedridden most of that time.

    test, hcg did absolutely nothing also. I couldn’t beleive I felt nothing. Not even in the gym did I notice much. Blood tests confirmed test levels over a 100, yet I felt my same shirt self. Hcg was legit as it restored my shrunken balls from test.

    Looking back at my journal from the time I can’t beleive I felt nothing. Everyone expects test to turn you into a alpha male beast and it solves everything. Nope I was an impotent bedridden emotionless zombie.
     
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    have you ever felt less numb from using 'street' drugs or alcohol?
     
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    alcohol I used to enjoy but nowadays just makes me tired and depressed. I get 4 day hangovers so I don’t bother with it.

    Ive not done illegal drugs for like 15 years. Ecstasy was alright, weed ok but nothing anazing.

    phenibut has made me feel perfect at times and still does very occasionally. But I’ve grown tolerance it rarely works now.

    if I have to be sociable and everyone’s drinking I’ll take phenibut and hope for the best!

    thyroid t3 or desiccated does nothing after a couple of doses. I got up to 300mcg+ of t3 and did nothing.

    can take 4gram of asprin and feel nothing.

    it is my experience of most supplements and I’ve taken them all.
     
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    Sorry I can’t remember. Probably wasn’t very strict just tried it for a week and nothing. Knowing me I probably mega dosed it too confirm it does nothing for me.
     
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    Went to work on just a litre of skim milk. Got a long lasting hunger pangs which I never get. Turned into a slight stress response. Got home and drank a lot of milk and a little honey. Resting my feet are cold but my temp is 37.3c! Hr is 72Bpm.

    feel a bit more tired and flat now. I think my glucose reserves are dropping with more physical activity and the sugar I’m getting from milk is not enough. Need to increase.
     
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    Diddleum

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    Felt tired all after noon like I just want to sleep and nothing else. Might just be tired from first day back at gym yestarday.

    on a positive note I’m hot! Had a minced beef and orange juice for dinner to change from the milk. And I’m hot hot, temp is consistent 37.3c?!

    maybe I’m sick as my gland is swollen in neck. Can’t beleive this temperature increase is from focusing on protein! I’ve done that before I swear.

    Or maybe temp increase is from memantine - anti cortisol - anti serotonin?

    relaxing watching tv I noticed a very slight feeling in my crotch. I never get any feels there ever.

    looking forward to what tomorrow brings. Hoping for a miracle.
     
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    Diddleum

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    Ok something is very different. I think this is gonna turn into a memantine thread for a while...

    woke up 37c 77bpm! I feel lovely and warm from head to toe. I feel ok but I didn’t sleep last night well at all. Usually I’ll sleep much more solid. I woke with a rock hard erection at 3am and from then I was awake every 20mins it felt like. I feel sort of wired in a relaxed way. A little uncomfortable but not bad.

    morning temp is unnatural. Either memantine or possibly I have a fever as I have a painful swollen neck gland. I can feel it when I swallow.

    memantine has a long half life so with 10mg everyday I’ve actually been increasing. I’m gonna skip today’s dose and then restart at quarter dose at like 2.5mg.
     
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    Woke feeling a little better still didn’t really sleep much. Temp still 37c 77bpm on waking. Neck gland still sore. Gonna skip mem again today. Still plenty of it in me. Really no idea what’s going on with the temp and swollen gland. But am gonna take it easy still it subsides.
     
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    With all the mentions of estrogen all the way from opening post, i am shocked no-one has mentioned progesterone in this context. Forget all other approaches to "controlling" estrogen, progesterone is the natural "anti-estrogen". Go get a bottle of progesterone cream and you can be sure estrogen is not your problem from then on out.
     
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    progest-e seems to of had no effect.

    think I am sick atm. Hard enough trying to work this stuff out without a virus coming along unexpected
     
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    Oh, i did not see it mentioned. Did you use it orally or topically? I remember reading orally it converts into pregnenolone on first pass so it must be taken topically for a strong progesterone only effect.
     
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    Diddleum

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    I tried both, topically in multiple places, gums, lips, wrist, scrotum!
     
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    Soo I’m somewhat embarrassed about my log so far. Turns out I’ve got tonsillitis! Hence my high temperatures was a mild fever rather than amazing metabolism!’

    log will resume when I’m over it!
     
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    In my non medical opinion, I would bet you are suffering from Vitamin A toxicity due to the Accutane. Please note, this is a very unpopular idea on this forum so I encourage you to read the three free ebooks on Ideas, Concepts, and Observations and draw your own conclusions. He is not selling anything and there are no ads. There is also a forum as well. In addition, there are Facebook groups that talks about the long term negative side effects of Accutane and Vitamin A toxicity. Good luck to you!
     
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    So I’m over the worse of tonsillitis, temps are normal and good..

    36.9c 76bpm time 1430.

    been eating peat mostly protein without pushing metabolism. Despite having tonsillitis I felt pretty good last few days even had good sex with my gf without any viagra.

    So I’m in a half decent place, mood is good energy ok, no libido or drive though. I restarted memantine at 2.5mg this morning, I’m also taking a crumb of arimidex every other day.

    @Kingpinguin i have received bromantane - thanks. I can’t resist starting it.

    I know I should be patient but I can’t. So my supplement to my peat diet daily is

    one asprin
    2.5mg memantine
    0.25mg arimidex every three days
    50mg capsule of bromantane

    @Kingpinguin how much bromantane do you take? How quickly did you notice the benefits?
     
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    Man start taking it. It will take a week before you start noticing. I take 100mg everyday. Two capsules in the morning when I wake up. I can feel earlier than a week but its quite subtle at first. After a week my motivation is much improved. I feel more rested without sleep. And more over all calmness.
     
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    I would experiment with 50mg first 3 days. If you cant really tell a difference happening than go up to 100mg and wait another 3 days.

    btw any effect from arimidex? You enjoy it? Low dose imo is key with aromatase inhibitors. They also have sucha long half life. Think arimidex is good tho because it is reversible. I used exemestane and started with way too high dose too often. Its affinity for aromatase is so strong that once it binds it never lets go so it completely disables aromatase untill you have actually synthesized new aromatase enzymes. So the effect can stay for a long time. Took 20mg exemestane daily for 5 days. Probably completely killed all my estrogen to 0. Got sucha bad migraine headache from it that lasted 5-7 days. At one point had to go to the ER because it was too intense vomiting and feeling like total crap. They gave me strong pain killers and sedative. Never doing that again. Aromatase has other effects than just estrogen control. Think like neurosteroid synthesis something with progesterone cant remember exactly. So completely blocking it = A really bad time.
     
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    Diddleum

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    Thanks man. Yeah I popped a 50mg. Plus 4 hours I feel the same. I read some people see the difference within several hours but I’ll be patient. Only got 30 capsules though so hopefully I’ll feel it before I run out!

    I’m on the fence with arimidex atm. I bought it when I was on TRT and my my gut feel was that it always made me feel bad. But I was all over the place at the time.

    With my recent thoughts going to my high shbg and estrogen symptoms I been gradually taking larger bits every three days. I have seen some mild improvements. But might be memantine. I took a whole 0.25mg yestarday and I’ve felt decent, nothing great though. Not on trt anymore. I got a rip off arimidex from a decent source. Not the real deal.

    I’ll keep experimenting and will continue to post here.
     
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    yeah some people might be hyperresponders to bromantane. I didnt feel anything at first also read some do feel straight away. But most sources says it has to build up. Makes sense since its not a direct dopamine releasing agent. Thats why its not addictive. Take some time for it to act on the tyrosine hydroxylase gene which needs to be activated to upregulate the enzyme synthesis. Like the overall effect is not crazy dramatic but it does make a quite noticeable difference in me after awhile. I also come from a background off quite heavy drug use which I think screwed my dopamine system a bit. Looking for anything that can long term upregulate, regenerate and boost the dopamine system. So far so good. Been using Bromantane for 1,5 month now. Hope the effects stick around after discontinuation. But thats at least what most human trials have promised. Have some other upcoming trials with nootropics ill be experimenting with. Like 9-me-bc, uridine, citicoline, modafinil and gonna try tianeptine aswell. Already used uridine and citicoline previously. Did like their effect but also very subtle nurturing the brain sort of thing. Modafinil I will not use for any reason than just getting more stuff done. Not like everyday use. Only when I feel like Ok I got lots of work to do. And tianeptine just seems like fun if used responisbly since its sort of an opioid. Use it with care I hear good reports. Some people claim it to be the devil im terms of withdrawals but thats only when you abuse it. Think normal dose is like 15mg. People complain about withdrawals after using 2 grams daily for long time. I mean common... people so dumb
    haha funny how i keep playing with drugs to tru to fix drug abuse damage...
    I guess once a drugy always a drugy
     
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